Happily Married.

SO LONG.

2011-03-22T19:55:00.002+08:00

Hi t all my dearest peeps, hee, Im away due t baobei Xzavier... Im so busy and tired after he's out... But finally I understand the feeling of being a mother. "Mama zhen de hen wei da". Hubbey is being a super nice husband and daddy, always coming home early t accompany baobei Xzavier and me... (:

I really hopes that Xzavier grow up fast fast, healthily and Im content already. My first burfdae prezzie was from Xzavier accompany when it hits 12am on de 17th night. My hubbey actually act as thou he forgets my burfday, he said that AK's car spoiled and he accompany him till he's car is send t the workshop. And I was so pissed and asked him can't he come home when AK's car spoil, den I hang up without even saying bye t him. Then I waited till 12am, Xzavier started crying for mummy hugs and Hubbey wasn't home yet. So start receiving messages and fb alerts , friends and family wishing me happy burfday. And I didn't receive a phone call NOR a message from that arsehole of mine. So I started crying and almost throwing his pillow t tell him t sleeps in the living room.

And I just text him and asked where is he... No reply or anything. And I just keep crying and silent my phone wishing that I could cry myself t sleep and ignores him. And not long, when the clock almost strikes 12.30am he actually came home t surprise me. But I was still quite piss off that he came home this late and not wishing me at 12am EXACTLY. Mwahahaha!

But I love the prezzie he gives me. Really much appreciations and lots of love. I was so touched, even thou I know how much it cost.... LOL, but yeah I truly love it.. (: Hubbey thankyou! I LOVE YOU! MUACKSSS!

Hee, kk gotta go! Baobei xzavier crying for mummy again.

Taiwan Trip.

2011-02-28T17:13:00.002+08:00

Im waiting for my little baobei to come into this world to meet mummy and daddy! I couldn't wait for his arrival. I've booked my ticket and hotel for Taiwan trip. All mummies in my family are going holiday after we give birth, hee a time for us to relax after 10 months of suffering... I really wish baobei come out faster... I couldn't stand the backache and all the hard walking.

Few days more to Thrid Trimester.

2010-12-23T21:25:00.002+08:00

2 more days to Christmas, and 5 days to

little rascal turns 28 weeks.

I already feels very tired and difficult to breathe

whenever I eats dinner. But my mil and hubbey

feed me as thou, Im really eating for 2...

Which sometimes makes me feels very

uncomfortable after eating.... ):

I feels full to sits infront of the computer...

Goodbye!~

Chanel ~!

2010-12-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

OMG! Falling in love with all Chanel stuff.

Chanel Wallet, Chanel Bag & Chanel's perfume!

Im loving Chanel so much that I wish I could go into Chanel and work!

Hahahahhaha! Madness right? Yeah I know.

I love love love CHANEL !

The bag I wanted, $3.4k. My god!!

If I strike 4D I will definitely go for it man!

I want CHANEL so badly!

But hubbey won't get such expensive stuff for me...

Especially when little Xzaiver is on his way to this world...

Sigh, CHanel I will just have to say..

Im still saving for you(:

Hahaha!

My eyes are hurting... Super red,

and super picky in feeling... Wonder what happens.

Maybe is the contact lens!

My legs feels tired today...

Superbly tired today..

I wonder what happen... Isit the shoe?

Hmm, hopes not.. Cause Im so lazy to go down to

pass things to CC.

Sigh, irritating & the person on leave till Friday!

Fucked up!! And lucky I didn't went down on Monday if not,

my trip will be wasted. Fucked up!

Urghs... Worst company.

Im so so so sleepy~~~~ ):

Im waiting for Hubbey to come home...

But my eyes are closing.... -.-....

Silly Husband..

2010-12-14T18:36:00.002+08:00

My silly husband was listening to my stomach yesterday

and saying why is there a sound like " pout pout pout"

so I was like, it's the heartbeat...

And he continue listening as his little prince was kicking happily.

He put in head near to little's leg and little just kick whenever

his daddy's head move. Hahaha.

Xzaiver should be thinking inside...
GO AWAY YOU'RE HEAVY.

Hahahaha, Im very blissful to have Xzaiver now...(:

It's totally a happy thing happening.

My dear aunt, Clarissa has already gave birth to her little princess

Shervelle Sim. A new family member in my family!

She's super cute... Im looking forward to see her during Chinese New Year.

I miss holding onto new born... But also some more scare...

Cause of their soft bones!!!

Hopefully Xzaiver is a fatty bom bom when he comes out..

At least no so fragile... Hahahahaha.

Going bath! BYE!

Finishes my full shift!

2010-12-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Yayness that I've finished my full shift for this coming week.

And next week I doesn't have one till 26th December...

I've been packing and sorting out my counter...

Please stop messing it up my dear BAs...(:

I was shock by the mess created on the very first day of work.

I packed packed packed, I throw all cartons and

throw all unwanted and unclaimed stuff left in my store room!

Packed all guys and ladies perfume...

Im working noon shift tomorrow, I hopes tml will be the same as today.

Nice customer walking here, test test test and okay.

Give me few pieces and pay money...

I was quite piss off w one of my colleague.

I have a customer wanted to get more fragrance which

I don't have run out of stocks! And guess what!?

It's suppose to be my customer she just took it as her's.

Im so bloody piss off with her!!

Early know, ask my customer don't find her!

Tsk, nevermind my customer promised to come over to

paragon to get instead. (: *hearts to my customer.

Im quite tired, tired out by work.

I had an eye infections as well.

How unlucky. ):

Quite painful, but well a sleep will be just nice.

Good night peeps(: Mummy and little Xzaiver is going bed.

Ps;/ I thank God for a gift like little Xzaiver,

his kicks & punches are so ticklish at times that makes me *giggles

a little t myself whenever I feel his movement.

I love his movement inside me... But I couldn't get even more

excited over his arrival next year in March.

Everyone is excited about your arrival,

especially your grandma and grandpa, they have already

gotten ready everything even still shopping for things for you.

Mummy wants to smell your small smelly hands covered by

gloves and kiss your chubby little cheeks.

At least whenever daddy is not around,

you can share the bed w mummy and showing off t daddy

how nice and comfortable we are sleeping at home.

Heehee(: Daddy will hate me for seeing this.

Mummy couldn't wait for Xzaiver's arrival.

Loves, Mummy.

Singapore Should Be Proud Of.

2010-12-09T19:45:00.002+08:00

Things Singaporean should be proud of,

-Pushing preggies for 7pm show on channel 8..

-A mother of a kid yet doesn't give up reserved seat for preggies.

-Pushing old ladies and old uncles for 7pm show on channel 8.

-Stops in the middle of the road whenever hitting 10pm to escape paying ERP.

-Causing accidents during peak hour...

-Staring at people whenever you're in the wrong...

-Not a apologizing when your are in the wrong, still thinking that your are correct!

Seriously, this is what some Singaporean should be proud of.

I seriously, don't understand what is wrong with some aunties!

What's with the show on channel 8!? If you really love watching,

your should get a bloody disc if you know that you can't rush

home on time... Or just stay at home and watch!

Don't get out of the house! For god sake!! Your

are the cause of certain accidents happens..

Sometimes I think those youth that start stabbing people are

correct, just some Singaporean just worth stabbing!

I understand that your'll are tired and also wants to go back earlier

and rest! But not only your wants to go home...

If your so into the show, must as well just stay at home and watch,

don't need work already. Seriously, these people

faces should really appear on TV, NEWS, POSTER.

See how wonderful your are, causing accidents and giving troubles.

I need to be extremely careful, but because of these people living...

They're just out harming people... Seriously, this people should

stay at home and just corrupt their mind with that 7pm show!

-Shake head.

Urghs! Thank god Im fine... If not I will seriously stabbed them,

even going jail I find it worth it.

These people should just leave in a country or Island that only contains themselves.

Xzaiver feels super angry... His kicking are super hard and punches as thou,

Im his punching bag...

Speechless.

2010-12-06T20:20:00.002+08:00

Im totally super disappointed!

I don't know what words can describe how I feels right now!

I dislike people that just because you wants to

tag along, I have to stay home whole day

and expect to do nothing for the whole day just because

of people like you!! I already doesn't have much

time out... Even during the night if I wants to tag

along whenever he go rounding

I already couldn't because of my big tummy.

Then why even your this kind of people couldn't understand

my unhappiness of, I STILL NEED STAY AT HOME

FOR THE DAY!! Then what is fair to me!?

I still have another 4 months to go!!

If every off day of mine people like you disturbed,

means I have to stay at home!?

How unhappy I am...

My life is all work... I don't know to feel disappointed

or what... But Im seriously super unhappy.

My tears couldn't stop falling...

My day is just spoiled by people like you!! FUCK YOU!!

I just don't fucking understand why people like you are

still living in the world.. Im really speechless!

Just because you selfishly wants to tag along,

I have to stay at home the whole day waiting like an idiot.

Off day! ~

2010-12-06T16:09:00.002+08:00

What a nice weather... Cooling and cozy...

My off day! (: & I just woke up from my beauty sleep.

How nice... Even bibi is sleeping right now...

December is definitely a nice and good month! (:

Everyone I met is nice and people around me are happy as well.

2010 is coming to an end, I wonder how nice year will be,

when little Xzaiver is out...

Busy? Nice? or Tired?

But with his little company I think I will feel super blissful...

I was telling hubbey that, if the day you're at reservist,

you doesn't have to come all the way homey just to sleep.

Cause the bed won't have a space for you... hahaha.

He was like, provided my little Xzaiver doesn't have

blue blacks around... If not I will give you double the amount of blue black he has.

Little Xzaiver mummy is so excited about your arrival... Im already in my 25 weeks.

Your movement sometimes is so obvious that

I can feel them and see them at times.

Some people are saying my tummy looks big...

Some says it looks small... but to me... I find it's quite big... hahaha.

Whenever I wear my t-shirts... It definitely leaves a gap between

my shorts and t-shirt..

But I still love wearing all my t-shirts and shorts.

Thou most of them can't fit, but definitely I love to wear them as

it's so comfortable than dress. At least I doesn't have to

sit in proper manner. Hahahaha!

People are saying that why am I different from the past...

Like much slimmer than I was preggie. But I find I grew fatter.

Maybe because of the digit on the weighing scale

that tells me Im fat. ):

I hate being fat, please make sure I slim back down after my pregnancy!

I won't even wants to think of being a fatty bombom.

I went lucky plaza that day & realize that bubble tea there

is much nicer now.. Hahaha. I wanted to get KOI,

but there's no outlet in orchard rd.

I seeing people drinking ' I Love TaiMei'

But I don't know where to get...

It's at Queen Street, but I don't know where isit. Hahaha!

I wonder where is my husband! I couldn't even reach him..

No reply and stuff, that's why I hate people that brings

a phone yet don't answer and reply sms.

Then what's a phone for...

Happy Working.

2010-12-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

I worked w Cheryl today! (:

Time pass super fast but I was super happy at work.

Thou nobody to lunch with nobody to chit chat with...

But it's just the starting of the month no worries(:

Im going to work super hard for work!!

I miss I miss I miss going out late at night for supper.

It's been long time since I've had my late night supper

outside, and my favorite carrot cake...

Hubbey is out with Ah Bee they all for some

special reasons. ): Im camping at home again

waiting for his returns. As I hasn't had my dinner

since my late lunch at 4.30pm just now.

I just finished my packet of Percy Pig from marks and spencer.

Drinking my green tea, with the news showing on the tv.

I wants to go shopping, Im waiting for my pay and go shopping

for my working clothes and big big t-shirt and my favorite part, BRA!

LOL.

I've been telling my girlfriend whenever they ask me,

what do you wanna buy? First thing that comes to my mind,

BRA please... Lol, so most of them will be like... ERMMZ... Hahaha.

I love my girlfriends, Felicia, Michy, Eileen, Megan, Sindy, Agdalene & FangTing!!!

My lovelyssss. Thou we seldom meet up due to each other's busy-ness

and FangTing ain't in singapore... But well, she still contact us through FB!

Agdalene always busy with her kids... Haha but whenever

we tried to ask her if she's free.. She'll always make it for us.

Sindy & Eileen busy w their make up job right now...

Only can meet us last min!!

Felicia my pretty babe, I just met up lunchie w her yesterday

she's not working now... So we're meeting up on the 13th for shopping!!!

Michy, busy w her work and never have a off day on days we're avail.

Megan, BUSY WOMAN. Busying w her school... And from what I know,

I will only get to see her on the last day of this month because of work!

Heehee. These are call true friends... Even thou how busy we are,

how tired and how lazy we are... FB, sms, tweeting, msn or giving each other

a call won't be less. It can be weeks and months we didn't chat or

contact, but once we saw each other name appears on our phone...

We definitely reply, no matter how long it take us to realize we received their message

or call.

Only if we realize during Mid night... We'll reply it during the morning next day.

But I used to had a friend...

We can call for whole day and text whole day & Fb...

But at the very end, we receive no replies at all.

Not even an apologies.

So what kind of friends these are called.

Not being petty, but seriously.... Neither it's the first nor the second time.

It's been all the while since we've known each other...

MIA is the correct name to call.

Well, when for my check up yesterday... Xzaiver boy was super fine...

Head looks big big to me... And he was so funny,

he's actually facing his back to the ultrascan...

But he did a super quick turn to show his face on the screen waving...

Heehee, so cute! He's a attention seeker for sure...

Ps;/ Counting down to the days Xzaiver boy arrivess...

4 months and 3 weeks and 1 day! (:

Happy Day

2010-11-30T21:43:00.003+08:00

Happy day!! (:

I met up with Felicia to had lunchie today!!

After having lunch with her I head over to Taka,

to have my interview and head back to Centerpoint to accompany Felicia

up to 5pm then I left to take train back to Amk for my appointment.

Had alot of heart to heart talk and joking with Felicia.

Haha, products and stuff. Sad that today is her last day..

Couldn't even have a day work with her! :(

Im waiting for Siok Fong to send me roster!!

Starting work tomorrow after a week of rest(:

Tomorrow shall go back to citychain office to hand over whatever

I have to hand over and that's it... It's the end of my life

in citychain. Mwhahaha! Im superbly happy!

Heehee! :P

Happy Burfdae Mummy!

2010-11-29T22:55:00.007+08:00

Happy Burfdae to my mummy! She's older a year again...

And she's going to be a pretty grandma of little xzaiver next year!

I hope you enjoy your day!

Hmm I hate my blogskins... I don't know why.

And I couldn't find any nice one... Im getting super irritated.

Im changing my blogskins after this post.

I see why can people have such nice and pretty pink blogskins,

but when I wants to get such pink and nicey blogskins I couldn't find any.

I feel piss by that... urghs!!

Or am I expecting too much on blogskins now a days?

I feels bloated after dinner has, Im super full.

FATS again... Im so scare to see my weight on the weighing scale tomorrow

during my monthly check up for Xzaiver baby...

Charmaine set up her own cupcake blog...

Her cupcakes looks so yummy... MWahahaha!

Hubbey is home again! Tomorrow is his last day at reservist!

Mwahahaha! Like finally? Lol, not long actually.

Im spending most of my time at grandma's place...

Thou it could be very irritating cause of my little cousins.

Im waiting, waiting to collect my pay and go shopping.

I couldn't wait to meet up with Felicia!!

I hope my pay is not hold back! If not Im just going to be super piss.

Cause I was told it's out already.

Seriously hating blogskin's website... It's so bloody lag!!!

Im feeling very uncomfortable with my tummy!

I couldn't sit in a position that is comfortable enough for me!

Ps;/ 16 more week to see little precious(: Daddy mummy is counting

down my dear boy...

Superbly Happy.

2010-11-26T22:07:00.002+08:00

Can you even believe!? Im finally LEAVING cc.

All thanks to Kenzo for accepting me again at work.

I just wants to leave SO LONG AGO. But well, Im just so happy that Im leaving citychain!

THANK GOD! ~ (:

Thou no fake eyelashes is allow in Kenzo,

but at least it's better than staying in cc seriously hope that

I will be much happier than before...

Doesn't have to see people's attitude and childish people(:

Don't have to stay in such company to make my life more miserable...

Hmm, Im waiting for Hubbey's phone call.

He text saying he was eating will call me later... but I didn't

receive his call since I've reach home till now.

He has been eating for the past 22 mins... Hahaha.

He's booking out tomorrow! But needs to book into camp

again on Sunday night.. Sickening leh...

It's only a reservist... Why do they have to book back into camp

on sunday night like other army guys! And the unfair thing is...

They only get to book out on Saturday evening when

the army boys book out on Friday night. So bloody unfair.

Hmm.. Im meeting Judy tomorrow! (: To collect the baby clothings

and eat lunch together with her... It's been ages since I've met up

with her man... Hmm, the last time was before June...

Wah, it's been almost six month since I've met her man...

I miss hubbey! Don't know what the hell he's doing lor.

Going off to watch my show! Bye(:

Moody again...

2010-11-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

What's wrong... Im suddenly having mood swings that feels so terrible.. ): Im crying like nobody business as Im all alone without any shows and people to chat with me on msn...

Hubbey came home awhile from 8pm-10pm cause he needs to get some stuff and book in by 11pm again. So he's back in camp right now. Will he's reservist finish fast! ): I kind of pity guys that need to go for reservist... ):Sigh... I really wished his reservist can faster over... At least I don't feel so moody!

Im all alone at home... Doing nothing, not noisy like previously whenever he was playing games... ): I wants HUBBEY! ): I want to cry so much my god!! I couldn't wait till 30th to arrive... Firstly hubbey is coming home and secondly Im going to see little Xzaiver... Im losing all my appetites to my food.. I don't feel like eating much, I really wish that hubbey faster come back so he can fetch me to and from work... HUBBEY! I miss you so badly!!

Sigh, I missing hubbey so badly that I don't even know what to say.. Sigh... Totally moodless.

What should I feel?

2010-11-25T17:27:00.001+08:00

What should I actually feels when I've already said what is suppose to be said... And why should I be guality for it? Of cos I can treat it nothing happen, cause I've already said what is suppose too. If I have to care so much about how she or he felts then ain't life going to be very miserable for myself? Sometimes humans are selfish, we tend to only think of ourselves because nobody is going to protect us, but ourselves. (Im not saying about me and my husband, but work.)

What suppose to be said, already said, take it anot, is up to you guys to do already. I can't take a knife and force you to accept right. I really wonder what's with this kind of people.. Sigh totally speechless...

Missing you...

2010-11-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

Hubbey went back camp for reservist... I hate it whenever he's away from homey... ):
Why isit guys has to go through army and after army still need to go back for reservist... Im missing him so badly.

Ps;/ Time can you please pass faster so I can see hubbey everyday after work and when I wake up...

Just wasting time.

2010-11-23T15:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I do feel its a waste of time to travel so far yet doing so much when this person don't even know he's actually wasting someone's time... Just have to treat him the way he treated us...Seriously, he's just a spoiler of the day... Sigh...

IS SO BLOODY DIFFERENT

2010-11-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

I don't know to say that Im not happy or what, but seriously I am due to certain friend and certain reason... What he's reason calling and say all these, because he find that he can save up some money and time. I really hate it whenever it happen this way! AND IT'S FUCKING ALWAYS ON MY OFF DAY!! FUCKED UP RIGHT?! Yes, seriously I do feel very irritated by that person. I seriously do!

I don't know to say his skin is just fucking thick or say he don't feel embarrassing. Im seriously so angry that Im speechless and tears are just locking at my eyes. Do little precious agree w me too? He's kicking hardly into my tummy. Does he know that mummy is upset and irritated by that person..

Does little xzaiver feels angry and irritated by him... I feel yes... I just feel like killing this person or him disappearing!! Seriously spoils my fucking mood !!! ASSHOLE ~

I just don't understand why people don't feel himself being irritating and being a super thick skin asshole... Seriously pisses me off. I HOPE HE JUST DROP INTO THE DRAIN ONE DAY! ROAR!!! I FEEL SO PISS OFF!!!! AROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can someone feel my anger!? I bet only little precious xzaiver does.... ):

Hmm.....

2010-11-22T14:57:00.002+08:00

Listening to all my favorite songs playing in my iTunes and realize that Im starting to love Hebe's & Elva's song more and more!! Butttt......... I only has 2 of Hebe song and 1 of Elva's song. mwahaha. How funny right...

I skipped work today, cause Im seriously feeling very lazy when I woke up from my sleep this morning... In total now, I put on 11kg since preggy, Hubbey and me don't see fats anywhere, but only my arms, and a little showing of my tummy, but the rest of my body feels perfectly same! ): I hope I really can shed of the fats I gain and back to 41kg.. I wonder how chubby is little xzaiver right now... (>w<).

Im in my 23rd weeks right now, next week scan will be my 24th weeks(6th months). Omg, it's so fast, and another 16 weeks time Im giving birth... How fast~~!! I really wonder what will happen after give birth and during the process of giving birth...

Tired day!

2010-11-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

Gonna be a super short post.... A very tired day filled w shopping and laughters.. (: Got Kayden's present and also got myself a top! (: I promise myself to get myself a pair of sandals, a nice dress and many many beautiful baby xzaiver's clothes.

Thinking.

2010-11-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

I seriously wonder, what's wrong with people now a days?

People that doesn't take marriage as a serious matters and killing people with knife over, staring incidents! WHAT THE HELL IS THIS PEOPLE THINKING!?

Omg, I read through only when my friend mention there's a youth slashed to death over staring incidents at Downtown East. What's wrong with youth now a days? Does it bothers if people stares at you and you need to be jailed for that? What's wrong!? If the person stares at you, just grumble to your friends or maybe stares back at him... You're strangers after all... Now just because of somebody staring at you, and you find it's very 'bothering' and killed the person... Now need to be jailed! Do you think it's worth!?

Or maybe because you're affected by your friends words and start getting anger and stuff. Please, grow up... If only you use your brain to think, you won't be wanted right now... (OVER SMALL THINGS). What's with the staring? Think it as a positive way... Make it as thou they never see such handsome or pretty person like you... Why must think ' Eh, that fucker stares at me sia, dig his eyes and kill him ar..'

Seriously, think whether isit worth it... Worth dirtying your hands killing and dirty your hands hurting such low standard person... Even laying your fingers on him just a punch or hit... It doesn't worth anything... End up getting yourself in trouble.

Funny excuses.

2010-10-25T22:14:00.002+08:00

I woke up by Dear's voice, " WAKE UP!!!". So I keep telling him 5mins 5mins 5mins. Till it's 10.20pm. So once I jumped out of bath, washed up and preparing for work... I realize something was missing. I brought 2 packets of potato chips last night, one was a normal packet size and another was a bigger packet, and while we are buying he told me, why don't you get both BIG packet one instead. So this is what I told him.

Hubbey: Why don't you get 2 big packets instead....

Me: Cause I scare I cannot finish one big packet later, so I get one big one small lor...

Hubbey: yeahhh.... Full of crap....

(Laughs)... So I didn't bother about him and brought one small and one big packet of potato chip... So when I reached home, I poured water and start eating my potato chip... After finishing the small packet, I told him...

Me: Hubbey, I think eh, the big packet one by later ( 4-6am) will gone missing already...

Hubbey:(.......................)

So I after finishing my chips, I was sleepy and fall asleep... TIME PASSED ~~~~~~~~

After waking up, I realize that the big packet of potato chips was MISSING!!!! So after washing up... I saw the wrapper in the dustbin!! So I said...

Me: SEE! I told you already right? Sure by yesterday midnight finish de lor...

Hubbey: No choice it 'stares' at me.... So I can't help it and finish it...

Me: MWAHHAHAHAHAHA! But see I confirm know you'll finish it by last night...

Hubbey: I tell you no choice liao mar, it 'stares' at me and ask for a one to one fight... So I challenge it lor... End up I finish it and throw him into the dustbin....

Me:(.................................................) HAHAHA.

Two is better than One..

2010-10-21T19:46:00.003+08:00

Ecclesiastes 4:9 - Two is better than one.

Im so into this quote in life right now. Two is better than one, inspirited by Brian Wong & Jacelyn Tay's(ex mediacrop actress) wedding video.

Im super thankful and appreciate my in-laws helping out with hubbey and me on our buffet night that tired them out. Im super thankful with friends and relative with their red packet and blessing and super appreciate your presence.

With all the blessing, I really feel blissful with hubbey and our up coming little precious :)
Im getting more excited as days are getting closer to 2nd Nov.

Ps;/ I, Anabelle Huang, take you, Yip Chin Lee, to be my partner, loving what I know of you, and trusting what I do not yet know. I eagerly anticipate the chance to grow together, getting to know the (man/woman) you will become, and falling in love a little more every day. I promise to love and cherish you through whatever life may bring us.

Little Happiness.

2010-10-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

Im a little princess right now ;) thou work is more or less tiring but Im happier right now.

I really love this kind of lifestyle again, doesn't need to travel anywhere far from home and doesn't have to worked like log. I love my new colleagues and love working with them and all the joking thing we've shared.

Roadshow of citychain is at AMK right now, busy us need to rotate to go up and down. HATE ROADSHOWS !!~

About 7.30pm, hubbey came to AMK hub becuz I called him and told him I've found a milkbottle piggy bank that we've been looking for long!! So he came down and see it and we're going to buy it tomorrow ;D. And we're going shopping for our big day stuff and follow by a dinner ;D. Im starting to get tired already, I shall wash off my makeup and go to bed... After a long dayyy...

2010-09-30T19:18:00.003+08:00

Was talking to Uncle Jesper( YO) & he gives me this inspiration

LOVE IS NOT
-Possessiveness is not love
-Jealousy is not love
-Lust is not love
-Fear is not love
-Keeping people all to yourself is not love
-Expecting something from someone is not love

The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it.

2010-09-30T17:02:00.002+08:00

Don't dwell in the past, because we couldn't rewind time and live back then.
Past is past, live for the future live for the present ;)

I've tons of things to do right now! Getting my nails done, getting my hair dyed(AGAIN YES!), getting my ROM dress( thanks to geraldine jiejie for paying my dress as wedding gift.), buffet and getting ready!! So many things to do, shopping shopping SHOPPING!!! ~

TAY JINGPEI , FELICIA CHAN ! WHEN DO YOU GIRLS FREE TO MEET ME!!! I feel like killing all my girlfriends! Hahaha, they are all so busy and missing in action.. But actually it's me missing in action, instead of going out, I rather stay at home and 'nua' whole day. hahaha! I think they hate me for it also lar. Hahaha!

I wants to go SHOPPING! All my babies are offline ;(. Especially my beloved one, AIRIN LEE ! Where are you!? Why aren't you online this few days? On holiday? ;(( Im looking for you... Hahahaha, I miss this 'little' GAL SO MUCH !! Im alone at home, hubbey's mummy and daddy went out shopping for our wedding stuff. Left me and BIBI( irritating dog) at home alone. HOME ALONE W A DOG ~ Hahaha.

Unlimited Love

2010-09-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

I felt alot of love this few days, from hubbey definitely.
Saturday, after we've settled our things, we went home and relaxed till Ah Bee called saying we're going for steamboat at bugis and so we waited for him to fetch us and headed to eat. Was super full after steamboat, they was snatching ' Golden Mushroom' with another table. It was super funny, and after that Ah Boy came and joined us for awhile and we left to meet others at Tg Katong.

After that they went Orchard, rounding. After 2 rounds in orchard, they went to wash their car at petrol station. We slacked all the way till 3am plus and we headed home. It was fun and a super tiring night definitely ;D.

I saw your blog, glad that you've learned about what family is about. It doesn't matter if you spend time less with us, but most important is at least you spend a once in awhile gathering with us, that's what count most. See you on Steph's wedding ;).

Im waiting for hubbey come home from work. I shall wait while watching tv.

BYE peeps ~

Does it matters?

2010-09-15T23:12:00.002+08:00

I was seeing people's profile and hearing people telling me about 'Grudges'. To people out there that wants to hear my point of view, here's a piece of entry I'm going to speak about.

I forgive, but I never forget. I don't hold grudges for no reasons, from young I doesn't have a father, I admit Im a spoiled brat, spoiled by my grandfather, grandmother and aunt. I do speaks without using my brain. But when comes to saying of how my family treats me, I can say how much I've hatred them in the past, but at the very end, I still realize that they are the most truthful to me. No matter how much unhappy thing I've done and hurt them.

I said that, I never invites is because Im not having any wedding dinner, because hubby and me doesn't want to be tired out. As either we're having buffet or chalet, everything wasn't confirm yet. If you treat us as a family, you turn up when I announce and on that buffet date itself I won't say " I also didn't call you so thick skin to come for what ? ". If you think that it would clash and thinks that we're still holding grudges then I've got nothing to say but tell you, Im not that childish.

Hubby was cute and funny today. He's now out with Melvin Poh eating nice food without me!! Im going to ask him to buy food tomorrow!! Im hungry, Im craving for my peanut tang yuan and it's waiting for me outside!!

It's coming 4 days 3 nights.

2010-07-02T01:21:00.002+08:00

Dear has went Thailand on th 29th morning 4am..

He went there to pray and walk around.

Im missing him like mad, I remember the

very first day he reached Thailand ,

I was totally not in a mood for anything..

I missed him madly. ;(

I went to work , and there's alot

of things went wrong. I wished that time could

rewind to stop those mistakes but it's too late.

;(.

I MISS HIM ! URGHHS !

I swear I will never let him go holiday without me !

Angry!

He was cute enough to learn what I usually did.

Previously whenever we quarrel instead of messaging

him or calling him up ,

I will leave a note on the table, saying that Im going home.

This time round this silly boy did the same thing.

He wrote ; " BABY ! I go out already, once I reach

there I will call you k ? Love you Miss you. "

I went toilet and seeing him not around, and the clock was hitting

4.30am in the morning guessing that he should be on his

way to Thailand , so after from toilet I came back.

I saw that note left below my watch.

I immediately breaks into tears,

and follow by I received a message from him.

" Baby , I going to reach airport already. Help me

cover my bike I forget to do it. Love you miss you. Take

good care ok. " My tears just couldn't stop rolling down

my cheeks. Till I was so tired of crying and fall back asleep

till he called at 10.30am asking me where am I , why aren't

I at work.

I miss him badly, bad enough that I wants to start crying

all over again right now. ;(

He's only coming home tomorrow @ 11 plus.

SIGH ~

It just take times to heal ! ~

2010-06-02T00:41:00.004+08:00

YES IM SICK AGAIN ! ~ ;( BOO !

Quotes

2010-05-26T02:09:00.001+08:00

Hearts never truly breaks ; they are just temporarily out

of business for awhile...

Yes indeed , Im sad so very sad quotes is

appearing in my life right now. I tend

to cheer up myself buried myself into work

and drama-series and sleep. Im throwing myself

at work , I couldn't stand being upset and tearing.

Total touched up of my make up today was almost 5 times.

Checking whether is there patches of foundation

or blusher , cze tears was rolling all over it.

I stop once when there's bunch of customer coming into the shop

that I didn't even have time for myself to stop and think

about those unhappy things.

Sam kept us busy with stocks and serving.

Im picking up new things at work due to, Im converting full

time next month onwards... After my final exams.

I hope it won't be a bad choice of me converting full.

Changing of battery , Settlement , Void purchase ,

Watch knowledge and everything I NEED to do as

a full timer.

GSS is coming soon , 27th May 2010. Gosh , time is passing

super fast , it's already May . And ending of May.

And June is going to start. Then June is going t end,

July will come , July going to end , and so on and so for.

AND 2010 is going to end. I can't predict how life would be

right now , but I really wished that things will get better

and everything will go on smoothly.

Well , don't hope because the higher you hope for , the

lower chance it'll happen , so just live and see how a days goes.

;) I will be strong , my pals and love one out there.

Please don't worry about me, Im definitely going to train myself

to be stronger ;) and face every difficulties Im meeting ;)

I believe that no matter what difficulties you've to faced,

you'll just have to face it and walk through it.

People said ; Holding is the one that keeps you strong,

but sometimes letting go is the one that makes you stronger,

cze you've learn to let it go and move on in life.

That's the quote that hit me in the face and tell me

no point crying and tearing all over, your love for him has never

fade, just that it's kind of foggy now. When fog starts to clear,

the vision will be clear and you'll be strong...

PS;/ No matter how much insulting things a person

has said, at the very end . You'll just learn to listen,

move on and stop thinking about being unhappy

over it. ANNA NEEDS TO LEARN TO BE STRONG.

Losing of confidents

2010-05-22T23:07:00.001+08:00

I've finished my theory papers today. Now Im very upset over something and even very disappointed in life. Im losing confident in life. That's what shouldn't be happening. I really hope that this will come to an end.

Enough

2010-05-19T03:30:00.002+08:00

Isit time to stop stressing myself up ?

Everyone is telling me that I could do it,

but Im still very stress up with things.

Maybe for my practical Im not so worried ,

but theory Im trembling !

Practical Im most afraid of is that my model will be late

for the time I given them. That gives me

sweaty palms straight !

Im so going to sit next to Eileen on the very exam day ! ~

& I thought that I could even skip a day at work for Sunday

which is 23rd Im also not possible.

Sigh ~ Why does people take exam and yet can really mugs at home

but me , has to consider that people at work needs me

around.

Im tired of work , but when money runs low , I have to

start getting headache again. Sigh... ;(

Im waiting for Road Show's money to be banked into my account.

But it seems like it's never coming. I have to wait 3 months for it.

Sigh , it's not even one month from that day !

URGHS ! ~ Im going to convert full... I couldn't stand being

paid so little yet Im even working on the very next day

after my exams.. But I wants to have fun before starting

work again, I wants to spend my time with dear.

Sigh, Im having v bad headache. Really very bad.

My cash are running low, Dear b'day is just next month.

I don't even know what to get for him yet ;( .

HEADACHE ~

Emotion Roller Coasters.

2010-05-18T04:37:00.002+08:00

A sudden mood swing occurs.

I don't know what's wrong but I just feels

like tearing. I tend to lose confident

onces in awhile, I tend to lose trust once in awhile.

But after a few days I will feels better and definitely

stop thinking such nonsense.

Whenever my friends starts crying to me about

how much they've missed their ex-boyfriend.

But, what I did was to tell them ,

you're crying over it because you're still feeling hurt

of what have happened previously,

but when your tears has dried up , is not because

you've get over it, because you're just living

with that pain , waiting for time to heal..

But when come to think about it , you're start tearing over it.

Nothing can be forgotten , never.

When you have talked to this person , you could

never forget about this person's exist , you'll

just shift them to the back of your heart and

decide to lock them behind some door where

you won't care and bother that much about.

But when a person mentioned about it,

you'll start thinking back whatever has happened

before and stuff.

Sometimes whenever you want to forget somethings,

the only way is to forgive and you'll feel better whenever you

whatever is in that door at the back of your heart.

Im getting sleepy.. GOod night... ;)

Ps;// From memories I turn up t what I am now.

Doesn't matter if they hurts , they sucks. As long as

they made you grow up that's most important. :D

;D

2010-05-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

Today I was in a good mood before and after class.

Laughing away in the class room and walking around.

Im abit disappointed with my model,

but end up , I think Im about unreasonable.

He's feeling unwell and yet I demand his appearance.

So yeah Im very sorry.

Anyway drag make up is fun, thou we have to make the brows

look thinner and everything. But I find that the wig part is super

funny. Haha , especially on Eileen's brother.

OMG I just typed Eileen's sisters. (LOL) ;P

He was super funny through out the whole lesson

and when I was drawing on his brows, he was noticing my eyelashes.

And he said after I moved off, " I wonder why she doesn't feels

heavy with that super thick eyelashes." Haha, I was like ,

I've been wearing lashes for almost of 1 year , why would I feel

uncomfortable haha . And his sister just keep forcing him to

open up his eye , when his eye was quite small. Haha.

Well, talking about class , we're going to graduate soon ,

I feel so sad when time has gotten lesser for exams and

our last day of our exams. We all was saying,

last lesson last lesson , but it's so hurting , cause from

a class of 9 of us , what we've don't know till we've learned

and even up to now, we're almost graduating from

class and will not see each other as often as now anymore.

Very ' she bu de '. But well they always tell us ,

we can always arrange a gathering. Haha ;) ,

Everyone from strangers , to classmate to good friends.

Im getting tense up and stress up. When I went to class

today, Joanne throw the first question at me was,

" WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR EYES?! WHY SO SWOLLEN ? "

My answer was , I couldn't get to bed at night.

Very stress up with exams and work was tiring.

So yeah , I need t really mug real hard for my theory!

I CANNOT FLUNK my exams!

Im drawing the kind of Fashion Make Up I want.

But I couldn't draw out what I wants to do.

Urghs, time for bed ! Cause tomorrow I have to work

FULL shift.. ;(

Wedding.

2010-05-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

When wedding hits my mind,

it was the sweetest , most romantic , memorable

and happiest moment given from your partner to you

and you to your partner. I couldn't wait for my day

to come. Well , I actually planned for 30th April 2012.

Im just waiting for this very day to come by my life.

I dreamed alot today especially during the noon.

I couldn't believe in what I've dreamed ,

and I find that there's no point mentioning about it.

Back to topic, imagine you couldn't get to bed due

to the nervous feeling, and couldn't be more excited that

this day has come by. Imagine your favorite wedding dress is hanging right

infront of your bed , some where around your room.

Your sisters are getting ready and preparing what surprise

for your husband and preparing themselves early in the

morning for the gate-crush.

And when the make up artist arrive,

you're so nervous when your heart just wants to jump

out of your lungs , after your make up and everything

your parents or even relative to put the veil over your

head and waiting for the groom to arrive.

When the door closed and you're alone in the room ,

you'll be wondering what have your sister done to your

husband and is he on his way to your room

door to pick you up with your favorite flowers and a

v big smile on the face. ;D

And how heart ache will your mum or the rest of the

relative feels that you're getting marry.

That kind of touch will only happens on that day. That very day.

And when you arrive to your husband side, everyone

is waiting for your arrival and welcoming you.

After all the tea ceremony you'll be back to your family

side for tea ceremony , and getting all ready for

a short nap after all the tea ceremony.

So getting back to your husband's place or even the hotel

for a short nap before your next make up timing and

the evening session. When all your friends and family arrive

at the hotel waiting for your appearance and

how lovely you'll look like. When the dinner starts,

you and your favorite partner will march into

the red carpet with your love one clapping

and welcoming you with your favorite love song playing

on the background.

After marching in, the ball room playing

your wedding photos, and even playing a short animation

of how you guys have met.

And a short surprise for your partner through videos.

It will be the most tiring but most memorable day

for you. ;)

Wearing your favorite gowns , wearing your favorite hair style,

holding onto your favorite flowers , and even holding onto

your favorite and dearest partner in life forever with no regrets.

With everyone's blessing and love for the newly wedd.

I couldn't wait for my day to arrive, couldn't wait.

I've already planned for my table arrangement ,

which wedding gowns , which hair style , what flowers,

which sisters , what colours for them to wear ,

and even what kind of wedding photos Im going to take.

Im crazy about marriage , but definitely I want

a super super successful , unique and blissful wedding. ;)

Superly busy.

2010-05-11T22:41:00.003+08:00

Im trying to find time for my studies but Im so pack till

when I open the notes , I already feels like sleeping.
Sigh, went to Malaysia for the past 2 days , and it's definitely

fun eating things that Singapore doesn't have.

I was super angry with the road there when Dear drove his bike in.

The BIG TALL humps was enough to cause almost 5 blue blacks

on my leg, inner of my big thighs and small thighs on the outside.

And George was the one that lead us around,

leading us to Ah Kua lane. And Dear was super

' pek chek ' with George driving skills. He signal but he didn't

went to where he signal but stay put on where he is.

So Dear rev all the way till we was right behind him.

And we went to eat their " lock lock " okay I don't

really know the exact spelling of it, but haha . I think human understand

what is that lar.

Then follow by we went with Ah Kang again,

is super nice and good trip, reason due to

Air-Con , Joking around , Musics and

THE ROADS ARE NOT THAT BUMPY !

When I was saying to complain Dear told me,

no use , they don't pay road tax, so complain they also won't do anything

about it. Haha ! ;P

I was like DUH ! ~ What the hell.

Dear wasn't working at Lucky Plaza anymore,

so he's almost everyday sleeping late and waking late every night,

so Im starting to follow what his doing.

Sleeping late , waking late. So I asked him to send me home

today and go find job tomorrow.

I miss him once the moment he alighted me and ride off.

;( My boyfriend. Haha , well Im already so use to him by my side,

pampering me during all kind of situation.

Haha , but now I am just supposed to be home for 2 days

and the rest of the days I will be over at his place again.

Hmm, my notes and stuff is still at his place.

So Im just going to do my face chart for the time being.

But I realize that my face chart is always missing, so

Im going to ask Eileen to help me print again..

Dear is playing street fighter , and I wondering

what time is he going to sleep again.

Sometimes , I realize that what people said maybe right,

but when you experienced it yourself,

you won't find it worthless , you'll definitely find it worth it. ;)

LOVE WASN'T A GAME.

2010-05-05T00:47:00.003+08:00

Love was never a game,

love was something serious , romantic and lovely.

I had a heart to heart talk with my dearest girlfriend

before my work.. She called me while Im busying

preparing for work and on the way to work.

Most of what she has said was inside my FB status.

She told me that ever since she was with this guy ,

she never realize what is unhappiness unless she

quarreled with him.. But now she found out somethings

that she shouldn't know and she's very upset.

Every moment whenever she's alone she'll think through it.

And start crying over it. And what she told me was,

if one day she decided to stop loving him , it's gonna to be the day

she stop trusting in love and believing in happiness.

She's a very cheerful gal that I've known.

She always laugh into her boyfriend's message.

Sometimes staying overnight at her place,

her boyfriend will text her funny good night messages.

The both of them makes a perfect couple knowing

each other very well.

But sad to say, what she found out was so upsetting that

she couldn't even stop crying over the days.

I tried telling her maybe it's just some just disturbing things.

But she told me, that person actually did replied. Saying she

don't mind and stuff. On the verge , I feel like

confronting her boyfriend and wanted to talk them to

talk things out instead. But she insist of keeping

quiet and doesn't even want to rate about it .

Where can I find such understanding girlfriend anymore?

I bet a few person whom reads my blog will know

who am I really referring too. Cause they

know the whole story exactly like I do.

But, they just keep quiet and always supporting this silly girl I have.

She never thought of breaking up with him,

or questioning him about it. Cause she loved him too deeply

that it's even hurt to ask him about it.. So rather keep quiet.

she told me ; " we pin point at their bads ,

whenever they did something wrong or when we're

frustrated, but always never calm and think about their good. Never

sentence a person death , when there's no evidence or

caught red-handed. " She was that buddy that

teaches me this sentence. ;)

My phone is playing the song by Alex Toh " Marry Me ".

The sweetest song sang by Dear to me

could not feel more loved than this ;).

Tomorrow I need to bring alot of things back to Dear's

place, like Laptop, Notes , Book .

Im moving almost my whole house to his place.

Haha ;P, he's going to need to fetch me back tomorrow.

;P you don't have a choice.

Playlist playing a song that Dear and me started loving

and singing before even we're together. ;)

I miss KTV-ing ;). I really miss them.

Hehe , I need to work hard this month for next month's pay.

Urghs ! ~

Maldives , will have to wait longer. Not now yet.

Anyway , Im going for a hair cut !

I wonder what to cut leh. So stress,

of cos going to get my fringe trimmed and and nothing else.

Hehe ;P Im going to stop touching on my length of hair..

Im going to to keep my hair long again...

And when it's long... Im going to cut it short again!

Wahahahaha! Kidding , actually long hair quite boring,

so yeah , I will stick with short hair. Hehe ;P

Marriage.

2010-05-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

June twenty first, 2009.

DEAR sang a super lovely song by Alex Toh,

" Marry me " in Chinese at KTV ,

in front of his buddies to me on his birthday.

In the taxi along the way Changi Airport,

he asked if I willing to married him.

Instead of accepting it , I told him.

" Baby you're drunk. "

And he said it even louder. So I accepted his

' propose '. And we are already discussing about

our marriage in 2 years time.

He's everything seems to pierced into my heart.

It seems like I've got his name engraved into my heart.

I couldn't realize anything more beautiful then him.

All I know is that , this boy I've got is the most

beautiful present in my life.

& I had never felt this way before.

He could try all ways to make my dreams come true.

On the Thirty-th he lied to me that he didn't get his present

so he's not getting mine, till we exchange present.

And we went off to his bike shop to get his

installment paid and he ride all the way to orchard

Paragon to get mine Burberry bag.

;) .

I remembered clearly , on the

HOW ME AND DEAR ( YE QIAN LI ) HAS STARTED ♥

Thirty-TH, April 2009 ,

I was supposed to meet up with my ex boyfriend,

and go home with him, but I didn't.

I lied to him that my ex boyfriend has to work

OT , and I doesn't want to be at home alone. So I meet up with him,

dinner and we went rounding.

He didn't complained for accompany me from 3 days continuously.

He didn't get bored of it , and he was enjoying it.

We planned to watch movie , but ticket were all sold out.

And we head off to Devil's bend ,

followed by Mount Faber and we decided to

settle down at Yishun Dam for awhile to see cars,

and chit chat.

We talked about my feelings to my ex-boyfriend and

talk to him about my life and he's life.

What I realize was , 6 months back I fall for this guy

and until now, the feeling wasn't gone at all.

So I was battling with my feelings and tried to keep a distance.

But when my ex boyfriend called and make a fuss over it.

I decided that the relationship between my ex-boyfriend and me

should have ended earlier than I've thought.

So I started telling him that I've have got this thought

and I've already lost feelings with my ex-boyfriend.

So I told dear the truth , I've fallen for someone.

But afraid that this person might not like me due to age gaps.

So I asked him about the age gap he thinks.

And lied to him that the guy is the same age as him , riding a bike.

But he told me , " Nothing is impossible, I don't mind about age gaps."

I replied " but what do you think your mum will think? If your age dating a

15 years old gal ? "

He replied ; " my mum will be like okay lo , since her son like.. "

I paused for a moment , and he told me to bring the guy out

and meet up with him. So I told him " the guy will never appear , and he'll

never appear infront of you. "

So after that I decided to head home as he wasn't feeling well.

So after he sending me home, he usually will ride off.

But this time round he didn't.

He waited for me to enter my house and close the door then

he went off. So while on his way back.

I pick up my courage and text him

telling him that the person Im saying earlier on was him.

And I know it's impossible due to our age gaps.

But his replied was , " I like you too.. ;) It's not a problem."

;) & both of us started our relationships.

And I will never ever forget he's love t me, was so sweet .

Dear , nobody could ever replace you inside my heart.

Cause you're already engraved into my heart ♥♥ .

:)

2010-05-02T00:40:00.005+08:00

TWENTY-NINE APRIL , 2009

Dear and I went to work as usual ,

Dear works from 10-10pm and

I works from 12-9pm . Thinking that it'll

be a early movie. End up the movie was 11.30pm

So after worked Dear came over to fetch me and back

to Lucky Plaza to wait for the show.

The guys are just there playing the New Street Fighter

while my job is to sit there and watch.

A total of 16 of us went to catch I.P Man.

;D Lucky Group plus George , Eileen , David and His girlf.

So we almost took up 2 rolls. But well , it's a nice show!!

Show ended about 1am and we all went home after that.

Thirty April , 2009.

Our one year anniversary we slept till almost 1pm

then we woke up. After that we went to settle

our little baby(RVF) thing and we went down

to paragon to get my burberry bag.

Dear thanks for the bag , after what I've known I really

will treasure this bag more than any other bags

that I have.. ;)

After that we went to buy Chicken Rice home to eat

Hehe, brought for mummy also. And after eating,

Dear starts to relax on the bed and watch tv.

While I do the packing on the floor and sweap the floor.

The best thing happened is , I asked him something

whether does it wants it. He asked me to show

him and I just throw it over to the bed, the stupid thing was,

it didn't fly to the bed , but a cup of ICE ICE cold water

spilt all over me, cause my finger hooked the tip of the cup.

And he just sit there and laugh non stop.. What a bad boyfriend.

Then we booked tickets for Iron Man 2 .

With , David , David Girlf , George , Eileen and Dave.

Show ended at 3am. So after that same thing, we all went home.

And once Dear and me reached home, we couldn't get to bed

till almost 7am in the morning.

First May, 2009.

Today we just slacked inside the room whole day till

about 4.30pm we went out to Sunshine Plaza to look

for his meater. But they was closed due to Labour Day.

So instead of hanging there long , we went home after that.

Bath and relax... So now it's already second may.

Second May, 2009.

My first day to be so so unhappy, Im questioning myself,

am I really happy or unhappy? I starting to be confuse again.

Im really wondering what's wrong with myself.

Well, just now I was tearing for almost 4 hours.

And I came across with this sentence in my head.

ANNA ; " If one day you wake up realizing that everything,

was just a dream it's just a white lied you've done to make yourself

feels better. But deeply inside you know how much you're

feeling. "

Im still feeling upset and unhappy. But I wants to cheer myself up.

Sigh, please give me the strength to rise myself

and stop pondering into deep thoughts.

I feels like shifting out...

2010-04-27T20:56:00.002+08:00

I really wish that I can shift out of this house.

I hate the noise, I hate that screaming and shouting,

I hate the moment you cannot even have peace or

even study your own exams.

I don't say that I don't love my family, I never say I don't

want them. But if staying together make so much problems

happening so what's the whole point of staying as a family.

When you cannot even understand your family

thinking what. Especially whenever you think that

you're the only one with not enough rest and stuff.

Im really on the verge on giving up , wishing that I can just rent

a flat outside. Life is short , I don't want

make it full of crap. I don't want and don't need

such life. I just wants to enjoy life, well

a way to really enjoy my life is to sleep beside

my dearest boyfriend and hear him snore ,

awake by his movement and awake while his still sleeping.

That's my biggest happiness.

His love was never lesser than my family.

Thou usually my family are the one giving me

financial support but , they could care less about

my feelings, I know people will be saying,

once gone you'll regret. Yes definitely I will regret,

I won't deny, cause I will feel lesser naggings.

Im fine with nagging, but I couldn't stand screaming

and noise level increasing for reasons like she's

being v irritated.

I wants to watch I.P Man 2 and Iron Man 2.

Hehe , movie marathon. Thursday we'll be watching I.P Man 2

after my work and Friday will be Iron Man 2 , after dinner. ;D

I just hope that will have movie tickets. ;P

Im so going to book tickets online the day before.

And going to book for Iron Man too ! HahahA !

Sometimes.

2010-04-27T17:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wished that Im deaf , Im blind.

I wonder why, always must be irritating whenever Im at home.

Wonder isit just me or is them that is really irritating.

I wished that Im deaf I wouldn't have to hear so much.

Well, people thinking that my life is very good,

yes, I don't deny. I never fail to get what I wants to get.

But , when comes to a time that I want peace

and quiet time, I find that I failed to have.

I wonder why Dear's family can be so warming

but yet my house is like a wet market,

aunties screaming and shouting.

Kids messing up everything and pissing everyone off.

I don't know why. But I just hope the new flat

will come real soon so I won't even have to tolerate such

nonsense, or even faster get marry so

this rubbish will stop forever.

I don't deny I hate my family at times when screaming

and shouting starts, but I still love them inside.

Just that I don't understand why the way of them

being angry is to scream and shout instead of

just blasting the music into their ears or even don't bother.

Sometimes when Im utterly piss I will be either blasting the music

into my ears , or don't even wants to hear anything.

Don't bother that's the best way of getting me cool down.

But to them they cannot don't bother. Especially my Grandma.
She wants to complain and stuff,

but she's just complaining for the sake of complaining.

She always said that my aunt ain't being caring..

But when my aunt is being caring enough she'll just find excuse

to stay at home or even say she's worried about

home and wants to faster go home.

Sometimes she nags that we doesn't bother about her feeling,

but is she, herself wants to make things turn out this way.

So sometimes I really wished Im deaf and blind.

I really don't wants to bother.. Im so going to stay 1 week at Dear's place

cause of my exam.. I cannot imagine how am I going to study

at a home full of screaming and shouting.

LOVE

2010-04-27T10:33:00.002+08:00

Im crazy over branded now..

Thou Im not going to spend a few bags

on branded. But maybe getting a wallet

from kate spade ain't a bad idea.

;P But not at this time, I just brought

3 palette of make up colours,

1 set of 88 warm colours ,

1 set of 88 ultra shimmers colours,

and 1 set of 10 blusher colours.

Yeah it total cost $104.

Then brought 2 tops and 1 dress from cotton on.

Yeah ! Anyway I stay out of home yesterday night

reason due to I doesn't want to hear so

much at home. Been very sick and tired.

Wants to stay out of matters. Hm, my exams

are just 3 more weeks, I really need to start mugging

and stop dreaming and playing or rotting at home.

It's not the time to do so.

I need research on make up that I wants to do and start

getting ready all my accessories for my models.

Then I will start finding job as a Make Up Artist.

Be it bridal or anything. Maybe freelence will be perfectly fine,

but I find it useless being a freelence cause

after all bridal make up artist comes in a package.

So yeah, I hope to work in TMUR, but I don't know if

I can be the top student of this class.

My classmate are also very strong.

Hmm, I shall stop being lazy but sleeping all day.

I shall stop and start doing some practise and stuff.

Anyway I going to have a super busy weekend.

Friday ; 12 month-versary, follow by

Saturday ; Dear's Ah Gong birthday and Sunday follow

by my grandma birthday celebrations.

Haha. Im packed weekend and having quality time

spend with Dear , during his off day.

Thou most of the time we'll be doing his bike.. But he

never failed to make a perfect day.

Thou sometimes we'll pissed each other through out that

day but at the end , it'll still be fine and happy.

Counting down , 3 more days to 30th April,

Im getting excited and getting happier,

we've walked through 1 year together .. ;D

;D

2010-04-25T19:46:00.003+08:00

Hello people ! ;D Anyway yeah I've decided on

a burberry bag to get for my anniversary present.

As Dear has already gotten his exhaust on his

bike , waiting for me to pay the installment

every month ;D.

Now we're searching for his meater.

:) Im waiting for that Burberry Bag,

is super nice , thou it's common la..

But well , what's things that ain't common now?

Yeah this is the bag I want ! ;D I know the heart

shape is kind of funny, but I love the patten

and the key ring there. ;P

And it's big enough to stuff all my things.

Im starting to be very busy mugging

for my exams and wish that I won't be a useless person.

I will make sure people that looks down on me,

they'll shallow back your own words.

;D, Im waiting for 30th to arrive !

;D my beloved day and most memoriable day.

29/04/2010 we'll be going Y.P Man

then on the 30/04/2010 will be Iron man 2 !

Haha ;D movie maraton.. Whoever that looks

down on this relationship we've already went through

1 year together I make sure we're going through

another 10 years , 20 , 50 years down the road.

Till our last breathe. ;D

I used to love dream but ever since 30/04/2009

I stopped dreaming cze I love the reality more

than dreams. ;)

Baby thank you for loving me this much and

given me this much, nothing can ever come inbetween us.

Domani at Ngee Ann city, will be the food Im

definitely going for to eat on th 30th.

Especially the Salmon with Mushroom. ;D

Im missing and craving for it ! ;D

Hope that Dear wants to eat Pasta too !

K Im going off. bye ! ;D

TEMPTATION ~

2010-04-21T00:44:00.002+08:00

Okay, I've thought of what I want for

my anniversary present from my dearest boyfriend.

Either a Marc by Marc Jacobs or a Burberry

bag. Hehe ! Thank you DEAR !

;D Anyway yeah, I food I keep eating and eating

recently, I wonders what's wrong.

I couldn't stop eating and usually I can skip meals

like one day per meal , but now !

IM EATING 3 meals per day !

Im going to put on weight! And it's time

for a full time to most food!

Especially desert , cakes and rice !

Im cutting down again , fish soup

everyday till I slim down another 4kg ,

that will be 38kg. ! URGHHS!

I need to go roller blading often again.

Im over stressing myself for exams

for next month and the following month.

Finding model wasn't any problems but

is the theory that Im worried off.

I hope I can just pass with flying colours.

Haha , ages since I've used this sentence. ;P

Im waiting for my beloved Eileen to upload

our picturreess in class.. For the Fashion

Bronzed look . HEHE ! ;P

SORRY.

2010-04-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

Firstly , I wanna say sorry to Eileen my dearest girl.

I had a bad bad temper this few days and this girl

here has been tolerating with mine demanding and

irritating tempers. ;( Sorry my dear. Im truly sorry.

I just realize that my dear boyfriend is so sweet,

I text him up telling him that it's only 10 days

to our 12 months anniversary ;D ! It's so fast ,

thou at the start of the relationship is very slow.

Due to hardship, but a blink of our eyes,

we've been together for 1 year already! ;D

And he replied me a good night message.

& I was like , he didn't text me any emoticon

so I decided to close the chat & his

message came in with 7 heart shapes in purple.

Im really glad I have such beloved and

sweet boyfriend. Nobody can ever ever replace him

inside my heart. No matter what. ;)

No matter how much bad things he has said to me,

or even didn't mention about my compliment

but inside his heart , I know that Im his beloved and

that will do. ;)

Hehe , people whom looked down into this relationship ,

I bet I've shown how blissful I am and the path

I've choose, no matter what your have said

about judging and stuff. End up , you'll

just have to accept and live up with it.

Cause after all , Im the one getting marry with him,

and living my life with him forever..

That will be him Ye Qian Li , no matter who

has objected or hearing nonsense from

another party is just hearing his bullshit,

after all , I've gotten a boyfriend that dotes on me,

that really love me and care for me..
That's most important ;).

His love is nobody can be replaced, his love is that love

that completes me inside out.. That nobody I believe

can give to me anymore... ;)

Back from work.

2010-04-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

Im dead tired, due to work.

Hehe, I had a very bad day today, I opened

one bill and thinking that today is the best day.

Cause I sold 2 Titus to a couple. But end up

follow by, there's this customer, she came in

and I was at the counter with Gigi ( my full timer).

Gigi left her watch on the table from a height of

1 cm and the table. I was doing somethings and I knock

onto the table, and people whom know me well,

knows that I've a habit of wearing big rings.

So when Gigi landed the watch on the table that's this sound

" clarrk " and customer asked me if Gigi throw her

watch on the table, I was like " no I think is me knocking onto

the table cause Im wearing big ring too. "

And she told me " I don't think so..."

and I was already bloody piss, if you think that she throw

your watch , then you wouldn't have asked me.

Then she asked Gigi " did you just throw my watch"

Gigi told her " I accidentally put it a little too hard. "

And she thinks that Im lying and she told me in the face

" I think you shouldn't have lied... "

I was like " WTF FACE. "

Thou I look at it , but I was doing my stuff also. So maybe

my ring knock onto the table or even my watch knock onto the table.

I have that kind of habits sometimes.

So yeah , she wants to complain us. And I just gave her

our office number. What kind of customer.

Thinking she's always correct...

Even I wanna cover my colleagues ass , I should have even come out

with a better excuse. Please for God sake, I HOPE THIS BITCH

JUST DROP DEAD AND DIE!

See her fucking face just feel like bashing her up.

But well , I don't give a bloody damn as what I've know is,

I can't be bothered, she wants to complain go ahead.

Cause if she doesn't believe then don't ask.

If at the same time I also knock onto my ring,

yeah ! There's no excuse if I knock onto it too.

How idiot, a real bitch.

Anyway yeah ! Im already looking for jobs out there,

for Cosmetic, so no point being so angry about it.

Im waiting for my cert and grad from my school.

I think for the whole June, Im taking a break and rest.

That month will be a month for me to go on holidays

and rest for awhile and look for jobs and interviews.

Yeah , that's my plan of doing.

Im meeting BABY EILEEN later Im going over

her place at 11.30am and then we will go town

shopping awhile before we head back her place for dinner

and then off to school. ;D

Im so excited to see her tomorrow!!! ;D

YAYNESS ! Hehe, anyway yeah, Im having headache of

what to wear tomorrow, it has been ages since I've wear

black dress out.. So I shall wear mine black dress tomorrow.

WeEe ;D

Hehe , shopping time! Yayness. I love love love shopping.

HEELS , DRESSES , TOPS ! WOO !

Kk, Im saving t buy present for dear. Sigh...

Im still having headache what to buy..

Shall go shopping with Eileen and decide tomorrow.

Models.

2010-04-13T01:10:00.004+08:00

I used to dream to be a model.

Ever since I've watch the show host by Tyra Banks ,

America Next Top Model.

But now instead of being a model which I know that

it's impossible! I will be their Make Up Artist.

Never thinking of stepping into this industry

but now, Im seriously into it since 2 years back

and starting to love what Im doing now.

I find models has very tough job to do.

They might have to go naked for photo shoots ,

they might have to go over their limits for

their job. Like what my teacher's always said

during make up class. " Models = " not normal humans"

" US = " Normal humans" Not saying that they are

abnormal or stuff. But they are really totally different from us.

Perfect skin , every make up looks good on them ,

skinny , daring and even SKINNY like bamboos!

Well , I stopped blogging for 7 days.

Due to my work and school is so pack that

I didn't even have time for my laptop..

Even during my rest day I would be just slacking at home

and sleeping the whole day.

But for yesterday was different, I woke up at 2pm to

pack Dear's room. Sweep the floor , change the bed sheet

and repack the whole floor. I used to do this every

weekend or one of the weekend, but now

I can only find time before my class

or even before work to finish all these chorus.

I finished it by 3pm and I just lied on the bed and start rolling.

The feeling of rolling on a newly changed bed sheet

is damn nice, I don't know why. But I just love the

feeling. Thought of cutting and dying my hair

but then I totally forgotten I has got work later at 2pm today.

Hais, has to be cancelled. Wednesday Im meeting

my dear Eileen again! We're going shopping

hopefully Im not going to spend alot.

Just wants to relax maybe we shall go chill and then

head over to her place for dinner and head off t school.

BEST IDEA! Haha! ;D

TMUR group suggesting a house gathering,

we all will gather and do on each other. By putting names

into a box and choose one. Hehe, so exciting like that.

Should be super fun! ;P But thinking when can we do it.

Cause not all of us can make it on certain days.

Maybe after our exams.. but they say wants to

do before exams. So shall see how.

OH everybody is asking me what happened to my leg.

I was burned by Dear's exhaust because of mine carelessness.

Yeah, so now is swollen like the skin is " chao ta "

Haha ! And hopefully it doesn't leave scar.

No dark soya sauce and stuff. Eat more white white stuff.

HEHE! ;D

I saw a super nice hairstyle for Bridal Hair.
And Im so going to do it on my exam day. ;D Shall post

up the photo next time ! ;D CIAO !

HI HI ! ~

2010-04-06T13:21:00.002+08:00

YO ! Im back lo ! Yesterday I had my 5% theory exam.

I have watch Clash Of The Titans with

Georgie , Eileen & Dear Dear.

When the starting of the show, I was looking at

Dear's face and seeing him finding that it's bored.

& wasn't what both of us expected.

But I love the show, yeahh, maybe because I find

the story line is interesting but the graphic wasn't

what both of us expected.

Im watching the 3D tonight, excited ! Haha !

Dear doesn't wants to watch, so Im watching it

with my colleagues! & the suaku me , this is

my first movie in 3D. Haha. They have super

gorgeous actress in that movie.

Anyway, yeah Im very busy, either work or school.

Sounds like I doesn't have life, but end up! I was

super wrong, Im enjoying myself whenever after school or work.

Either Dear will fetch me from work or I will look for him at

lucky then we will go home together or meet up with georgie to

see scenery or we will go for dinner or movie!

I wants to go for KTV ~! I wants to sing sing sing.

Shall wait till my pay day! Then treat Georgie and Eileen

for KTV ! ;D Hm, 30th April is coming! People that

know me and QQ since we've started should know

what date isit ! It's our DATE ! ;D We've already planned what

to do on that day. How fast right?

29th night we'll watch I.P MAN.

And on the 30th itself after my class, we're going

to watch Iron Man 2 ! Woohoo, movie

marathon for this month lo. Haha! ;D

Im so in love with April, so so so in love with this month.

Thou I meet a few unhappiness but I still love

April. ;D Dear dear is my happiness that makes me

love this month so much.

Finished .

2010-03-24T01:32:00.006+08:00

Yeah ~ I finish 海派甜心 again hehe !

Though this time I take a long break in between

the show, but every part of the show I still

cried especially at the saddest part of the scene.

My eyes are hurting right now due to

too much crying one short.

While the sweetest scene of the show is when

Bao zhu asked Da Lang , whether he wants

to marry her... If there's a girl such daring,

it shouldn't be me... Haha ;P

I was out with my DEAREST JINGPEI today! She made my day seriously!

She made me laugh like mad at Sakae Sushi restaurant and

she did tell me about our ex-work place , what happened after I left.

Haha, how cute and funny it was when she told me about it.

HAHA ! I couldn't stop laughing, it has been months since I meet

up with her.. She's always so busy ~ No lar , haha

both of us are busy at work and school . So yeah , we are mugging

hard so next time we can meet more often ! Haha ;D

She was telling me about ISC hired a new guy and the guy

asked her funny questions that kept me laughing on the whole meal .

Haha ! ~ She said , even before he approach the customer,

the customer will ran away already. No he scare of customer.

Haha , the way she describe it , it's damn funny.

I had to paused awhile before I could stop laughing.

She's really the sweetest girl I ever know. She brought me

one small piece of Cake that is so nice & BIG !

Fattening lo, chocolate cake some more.

The most tempting kind ;P . She's very nice,

Thank you my dear ! I love you muacks!

Please plan a sentosa trip REAL SOON !

I miss you so much so much ! ~

:(

2010-03-23T03:02:00.003+08:00

A sudden mood swing occur. I wondering what's wrong.

Im playing the same old song over and over again on my

iTunes, instead of getting sick, I thought of somethings.

Those days when we always hang out at Thai Disco,

when we drink till there's no tomorrow.

Till now, memories are still lingering inside

my head and heart, no matter what has happened.

Your has once given me the best and most wonderful memories.

Please remember , that your are not forget.

Though I hate drinking ever since 2 of you are gone.

But I really wish to maintain those memories I had

with both of you. Even though it's only a while that

we've known, but serious.

I couldn't forget that laughter I had with the both of you.

It heart aches me, I still blame myself over it,

I couldn't forget what exactly happens.

And thanks to this matter , I afraid,

afraid to drink and stopped drinking for 1 year..

A blink of eyes, your has already passed away for 1st year

this year... Are your doing good ?

I still couldn't forget those incidents.

I still couldn't forget when I receive the call from one

of our friend, and realizing that both of you has passed on.

Im still blaming myself badly over it.

If that person didn't called and complained !

Things like that wouldn't have happened !

My heart really aches, why! If not because you

felt so unfair , and couldn't bear to let your hands off,

they wouldn't met the accidents , NOTHING
WILL EVER HAPPENS !

Fate ?

2010-03-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

I've been watching 海派甜心 again!

Haha, I'm remembering all the phrase

they has and they said. Like one that

makes me have a very very deep thought.

If you got watch, almost all the

phrase inside is very meaningful and touching.

& Im serious about it. ;)

OMG ! My computer is super laggy!
& I don't know the reason ! Is pissing me off.

Roar ! I receive emails , & I just use my Iphone

to check them out. Im downloading my show,

so I think that's the reason that cause it to lag.

Urghhs ~

Im waiting for my show to load so Im able to watch.

Since tomorrow Im ain't working and

I meeting Jing Pei in the evening for dinner,

so yeah ! We shall go dinner together and stuff.

She mentioning to eat Sakae.
So YEAH ~ I can have my fresh salmon !
WOOHOO ~

Oh yay ! Im getting a camera next month

yes a new one , Canon ixus 1o1.

I wanted to get the 130, but then I still prefer

101 cause it has RED ~ my favorite colour !

Im starting to fall in love with red things,

which doesn't give me any reasons.

Colours that I usually don't like are now my favorite colours.

Which I don't understand the reason ,

etc , Green , Red , subdue green.

Im starting to fall in love with so many colours.

Well , maybe that's a make up artist job.

Anyway , Im having exams , 60 days to my theory exams

and 75 days to my practical exam !

Practical exam will be a full day of 7 hours !

Within 7 hours , I need to finish 7 set of hairs ,

7 sets of make up! So now , Jyue Hyue and Bobbi

is very into about timing , because if

we are this slow, we won't be able to finish up

on time for our exams !

I think I need time to stay at home and read through

my notes for Theory, 60 days is very fast.

A blink of my eyes , I think it'll be around the corner.

So I think I need to read read read my notes.

Exam is around the corner I don't want

to waste this money learning yet getting nothing.

Please please ! ~

Im getting stressed over exams hopefully , I will

pass ! It's my dream and it's my everything in life

making a woman a beau , on her big day or fashion

show or EVEN !~ Normal outing. ;)

Tsk ~ ! Something is wrong with my connections,

is giving me big big problems !!

Dear is going out with George because of his bike again!

Im getting piss off , I paid for nothing and get a lousy bike !

When I've already send back a few times !

3 times within a while ! I told that the battery is giving problem!

And YET NOW ~ IS STILL GIVING ME PROBLEM !

What for I pay so much yet I get shit like this !

TELL ME WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM ! ~ Roar,

okay, Im very easily angry today. Wish I don't know the real reason

behind it. Ops, did I said I sprain my leg

while walking down the escalator yesterday after work!
How poor thing ~ I was walking down and a uncle just

banged into my and I almost trip with my

face facing down onto the steps !

Luckily I hope onto the handle and balance myself

but too late , I've already sprained my leg before

I was fast enough to react ! ~

SUAY ENOUGH ! Hehe

BUSY !

2010-03-16T01:00:00.002+08:00

Yeah ~ Im back.. I didn't blogged for 6 days and

that's not my kind of style right? HAHA ! ~ I know.

Hmm, Im been busy these 2 weeks.

I had work and school , work and school.

Starting to feel very tiring..

Anyway yeah ~ I want to say 2 more days

to MY BELOVED birthday ;)).

Though I didn't plan anything for these year's

birthday. But well, like I've said as long as Im happy

Im glad. See who is going to be the first one to

text me up tomorrow at MID NIGHT 12AM !

& Im online shopping now again ;))

that's my favorite thing to do whenever I have time for

my laptop, Im dying of buying new clothes.

Haha , but I've tons of dresses I still yet to wear.

So yeah ~...

I just brought a new top and dress when Im out

with my baby Felicia at vivo city.

She tempted me to buy a super sweet dress

Haha, and indeed I brought it and Im loving it now.

Dear was saying when he saw that dress.

So small girl.

I've yet to buy such dresses already, all

my dresses are either black or bare at the back.

So something sweet is coming out.

;)) It's already 1.13am I needs to wake up

at 8am tomorrow cause I have work in the morning.

Only me and Carmen, Linda morning has something

on so she'll come in late. Kelvin working afternoon.

So morning only Carmen and me in shop ;)

Hmm, Im yet to feel sleepy cause today I slept

the whole day till 4pm then I woke up

and prepare for class. Hmm, gosh Im wondering

who to find for model this wednesday ! RAH ~

Hmm , okay I shall stop blogging. Doesn't want to make it dragging.

tired very tired..

2010-03-10T03:02:00.002+08:00

09/03/2010

I've been tired these few days.

Reasons due to work and class, hais.

Thought I could rest today, but we was

all informed last minute that today has class yesterday.

So we went back school for Cosmetology class.

Well chim class today. But I end at 9pm, and everything.

I went home at 9.30 or something. Reached home about 10.25pm.

Dear went to play table tennis with the group as usual,

and w/o me along because he didn't had his bike with him.

Cause it's spoil ! YEAH ! NOT EVEN A WEEK !

So he scolded the person lol , and they tell him

tomorrow his able to collect.

So hopefully tomorrow Dear is able to

fetch me off school. If not I will be death tired,

taking train. ;( How blissful am I to have him

fetching me off work whenever Im working late or

having class till late nights. love

Im feeling sleepy and dozing off now. ;(

Anyway to Eileen baby , there's a kind of misunderstanding

that will dissolve after awhile , doesn't need to take it to heart

my dear , people make mistakes and have done wrong.
Just that there's a group of people doesn't they are wrong

thinking they are correct, (you know what I am talking about).

At least dear , you realize your mistake and really think

you need a better changed. At least you tried changing

and really aches when your family told you what's wrong.

Understand ? Family doesn't have overnight hatred I believe they

won't hate you for so long over such matters that happened

when you're so naive and you didn't even know what

you're saying that time. So why pull your mood down ?

If you tell me that it's now that you've done such things,

I think your family will just say " what comes around goes around."

Yeah , at least it was when you're young.

Some human being supposed to be mature and know how to think,

but they still use their butt to think of their path.

Doesn't matter if it's wrong , as long as you're apologize and really

willing to change and know you're at fault. And understand the word ,

guilty. Cause for some cases , some human doesn't understands.

So Eileen dear , nothing to be guilty for , cause I believe they have

already forgiven you.. (; NO matter what I LOVE YOU

Meeting Felicia , tomorrow & she's so going to hear me nag

again tomorrow. Hehe , wants to go shop shop

or eat with her.. ;) I miss her , been long time since I've

met her. So some meet up shall be good.

WHERE'S MICHYPAN ! IM LOOKING FOR YOU
SEEMS SO BUSY EH ! ~

family

2010-03-04T13:50:00.002+08:00

From what I've learn,

family is something that is bond for life.

Treating them using your heart and feelings,

not using your mouth to just say that you treat

them as family, yes I admit that I've hurt

my family, I've said awful things to them before

Like example, I hate them.

Due to certain reasons.

But at the very end I'll feel bad

and said sorry, cause no matter what

happened, they are the one that will stand by me.

To certain categories group of people,

they said hurtful words and they think

that they are correct.

They think we're at fault to say hurtful

things. And expect us to respect them,

but Im sorry, I can say I will never

respect. Cause no point, to this kind of people

respect is just a word. Respect is just to have face.

Don't because of you're mine elderly I have to respect.

Yes, by right I am supposed too.

But I don't find a need right now.

Cause no point respecting.

PS;/ FAMILY IS SOMETHING THAT BOND

TOGETHER FOR LIFE USING BLOOD

NOT WEDDING BANDS. EVEN AFTER LIFE

YOU'RE BOND TOGETHER. NOT JUST USING

YOUR BIG MOUTH TO SAY. MOREOVER

WEDDING BAND CAN BE REMOVED

AND WHEN YOU SIGN ON THE PIECES

OF PAPER THERE'S NOTHING TO

DO WITH EACH OTHER ANYMORE.

WHERE AS, BLOOD IS CANNOT BE REMOVED.

UNLESS YOU DRAIN YOUR BLOOD

AND DIE.

This is what I call love..

2010-03-03T17:49:00.010+08:00

This post is found on Eileen's blog and

after reading I feel so sad and teared,

this is what I called true love <3.>

Katie Kirkpatrick

Nice Goodwin, 23 years old , her fiance.

She was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor.

Katie Kirkpatrick and her fiance, Nick, rest prior to their wedding.

Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours in chemotherapy.

Here Nick waits while she finishes one of the sessions.

Even in pain and dealing with her organs shutting down, with the help of morphine,

Katie took care of every single wedding plan.

Her dress had to be adjusted several times due to her constant weight loss.

An expected guest was her oxygen tank.

Katie had to use it during the ceremony and reception.

Nick's parents look on.

It's very emotional to see such couple

hangs onto their wedding day to make it

and Nick's parents aren't unhappy or

disagreeing about it.

Katie needs to catch a few rest before she could due to the

pain doesn't allow her to stand long.

Sitting on her wheel chair, listening to her husband

and friends singings , that makes her carries a smile

and laughter on her face. Katie died 5 days after her wedding day.

Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and

with a smile on her face make us think happiness

is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making

our lives so complicated.

♥♥

2010-03-03T14:08:00.003+08:00

I've been dreaming these few days,

I don't know if Im too tired or am I thinking too much.

I just don't want to talk about what I dream,

but yesterday evening I remember I was

dreaming about something bad,

I woke up in tears and I could hardly

even catch my breathe, and nobody was

at home, I couldn't even call for help.

Tension pain in my chest that cause me hard to breathe

properly, so after catching back my breathe,

I lied back down on the bed and continue resting.

With tears flowing onto my pillow, hoping

that what happened in my dream will not happened.

So after resting till 9 plus Dear called telling me

he reached home and he fetch a girl from lucky

go home, ask me to guess who, so I told him ,

Mei mei lor then he start saying so obvious of cos I know

is who. So after that we hang up,

till 10 plus he message me telling me that he

going to bed , his very tired.

So I online awhile with Eileen and William

till around 12am I went offline and back

to rest on the bed waiting to fall back asleep,

so I start rolling on the bed trying to fall back asleep.

At last , I fall back asleep at 1am and waking up at 11pm

today.

Im booked on 12th March , JP early advance b'day celebration

for me ;) but we're thinking where to go, * headache*.

Hmm , tomorrow Im working noon shift, Dear

is fetching me off work at 10pm tomorrow.

Please don't wait for me so long le dear, I feel bad.

So maybe you can hang out at lucky awhile or go home

first before heading to vivo , since I end work

around 1030pm after cleaning up the shop.

I forgot to mention Eileen brought me my present,

;) that sweetie is always so nice. ;)

She brought me a bag from Charles and Keith.

& Im bringing it every where I go.

Hmm , Im waiting to wear all my nice nice dresses out.

I brought them but I didn't have a chance to wear

them yet due to work.

;( , I brought 2 new tops , 1 from Mango and another is from

Cotton Body. Im loving the one I brought at

Cotton Body cause it's sexy ~ haha , Mango

is a normal red top. I starting to love RED COLOUR!

Gosh , I have almost 4 tops that are red in colour.

Cause my family are nagging Im always wearing

black or white or grey. Don't have some

bright colour.

I wants to go back to Dear's place,

tomorrow Im going back ! ;)

2010-03-02T11:05:00.002+08:00

1/3/2010

Yesterday, Dear and mine off day,

we wake up at 11am bathed and everything.

So first we went to AMK polyclinic to

see doctor, after taking queue number we walked

to AMK hub to eat Fish & Co. And finished by 1.35pm

walked back to polyclinic and just nice ! 7 more to us.

So we waited and end up they told us Doc will be back at 2.30pm.

So we went to park our bike at multi-storey carpark and

after that, we went back and waited.

While waiting we quarreled over what I've said.

Yeah ~ not say very bad, but I really sorry over it.

So after that we ride over to our bike shop

and we start talking and stuff. Then slowly

we're okay after that.

Im really hurt over what has happened yesterday,

especially what he'd said when I mention about it.

Very hurt. But well , it was just at the heat of the moment

I believe. Hmm just wish that he didn't mean

what he said. ;(

Then we went Lavender and visit Motoworld,

after that we head to Sim Lim square and home.

Then after an hour of rest, we went

to wash our baby girl ! ;)

Then home again to watch ghost movie

and we cooked maggie for dinner ;D.

ps;/ Dear, Im sorry what I've mention yesterday afternoon,

Im sorry that I've complain but I've realize they are

all in the past, what matters is Im your present and future.

Im sorry. Truly sorry. ;(

Sleepy.

2010-02-23T00:15:00.003+08:00

I had a super nice day today, but very tired thou.

Im starting work on Thursday Vivo City , CityChain.

I hope it's going to turn out find, Im suppose to meet

Eileen on Thursday but I totally forgotten about it,

so I decided to delay our meeting till after 6pm !

Which is after work that sweetie of mind say

she'll cook for me, burger ( as I request).

Haha, but Im telling her don't , come up my place

and do dinner. Much better don't need so

troublesome, but by 7.30pm I must

leave house to meet Dear in lucky and go back together.

So Im still deciding, haha. Hope she knows how

to use mine Kitchen , I will help her out if she needs help.

;P she's so sweet can! ;D Im loving her so much.

Anyway class today was absolutely fun.

Day make up , a full make up on the models and

definitely the best on them.

Im really very sleepy, very tired.

Woke up at 8am to bath and prepare to leave the house

for interview and reached back home at 11.30am.

Didn't rest, kept myself busy and don't fall asleep,

till now. ;( My eyes are hurting already.

Anyway, Im so happy that Dear is taking

he's bike tomorrow, where shall we go tomorrow night?!

LOL ! I was nagging at him earlier on,

about fetching me to work at 10am but he

say it's too early cause he reach work will

be too early.

Hmm , so Im trying to convince him to

fetch me to work in the morning I don't want to

squeeze the train ;( very irritated during the morning

squeezing the train ;( idiot dear dear.

Sweetest ♥

2010-02-22T11:58:00.002+08:00

Im saying how happy I am recently.

Memories happened in the past, I totally just

wants to forgets about them. Now,

I realize that nothing or even nobody

can replace him inside my heart.

Maybe at times, when we had argument or

disagreement on certain things I will think why

can't we think the same, but end up

I know it's me that can't think the same way

at times. Now I realize that he's way of loving

and concerns is totally a big different from others.

I don't mind who is he's past, what he did

in the past, but most important is, Im

he's present and he's future. ;D

Alan is saying that Im spamming the FB status

message, but I have so much to share with people.

I really hope that I CAN SPAM IT ALL OUT!

Im very happy recently, really very happy.

Which I don't know why but I just now,

Im content with everything I have now.

Love, Work , School , Family , Boyf, Friends.

I know that Im cutting down my time with my friends.

Im sorry especially to MICHYPAN ~

because I meet her at T4 ( Terminal 4).

Now I think I have even lesser time outing with my friends.

Hmm, only when I off , I will ask Dear to take off.

Then we'll go out together shopping or rounding around ;D.

Alan was saying that Im very blissful, I don't deny that

Im blissful because I really felt very blissful in

a relationship with Dear ;D

Im really very blissful, I don't know why

every single minute of my life Im smiling

and feeling that happiness inside me,

after knowing that my family accepted him ,

after knowing next time any events,

he might attend with me, knowing that he might

be the one I getting marry with.

My heart just filled with full of happiness.

Like what Alan said, his love filled me till I brink already.

It's kind of true, Im really at the most happiest time

of life, treasuring him , loving him , giving him happiness

and support that he needed. & Now he gave me he's.

Seeing him carry my baby cousins, I smile to myself.

Cause he love kids and this is the very first time,

I saw him playing with kids and loving them.

He'll be my baby's best daddy.

I will lock this man and treasure him forever,

till life ends even next life, I wants to be with him again. ♥

♥

2010-02-19T21:13:00.006+08:00

Im chasing a fly that stuck on my lappie.

It doesn't fly off even when I blow it,

or even use my cushion to push it away.

Hmm, maybe it's injured so leave it there. Lol.

Im getting excited, because Dear is going to take

he's bike tomorrow, finally we can go out at night

again! ;D. Been months since we both

have actually go out till late night,

or even him buying swee choon carrot cake for me.

;) always remembering on the 30th of every month

he'll fetch me to near Mustafa to buy

carrot cake, and go walk around at Mustafa.

Shopping for watches and perfume. ;D

Or even going to East Coast or Changi Beach for

a scroll after our dinner, going movie in late night

finding George after he's work. Or rounding in

town to see if there's people touring

around town. ;D Him fetching me to

Pet Farm in Paris Ris. Then rounding at

Devil's Band and stuff. Or scaring me

to OCH. Haha, Asshole right.

I use to remember he's PGM is always

the one that let me know he went to work

and coming back from work.

But now he's RVF, is not going to let me know.

Cause I couldn't hear. Haha, moreover

we changed room , so also won't know. ;P

I miss the wind blowing into my face I miss

that feeling of my fake lashes are dropping because

of the wind. I can't stop missing haha ;P .

Omg, Im really so excited for Dear's bike to arrive!!

GOD GOD! LOL ~. Is a kind of excitement in me

again when taking he's bike. But never never

ask him to fetch when he's in a bad mood,

cause he take he's bike to vend he's anger.

Cass and me is messaging talking about Dear

is getting he's bike again she told me " take car lah,

then I can hitch a ride, " I told her " wait 2 years ltr I fetch you."

She told me " by the time she fetch me first already. "

I told her " Yea , use bicycle fetch me lor. "

Haha, well I have my worries when he has he's bike,

I have my enjoyment when he doesn't have bike.

Reasons are secrets, but well I can't stop

if things run out of hand. So just let natural take it's

course ;), I hope what Im thinking now won't happened.

& he won't do such things.

I hope my worries are extra.

Im meeting him tomorrow in Lucky again

then at night might be going out with Ah Leong

cause it's he's birthday Yesterday, but they planning

to eat tomorrow. Hmm alot of people's

birthday are coming up, AK's , XH's , & MOST
IMPORTANTLY IS MINE!! ;) Haha,

But I don't plan to celebrate maybe just some

friends gather and eat dinner.. That's all. Haha.

Kk, going off ! BYE! ~ Love ♥.

CNY OVER ~

2010-02-18T20:17:00.002+08:00

Okay, I still waiting places to go,

Friends relatives places Michy's.

Haha ;D Im dying to her place please make a

date free sweetie.

Anyway, yes to me CNY is over.

Cause people has already start work

and everything is going back to normal,

like Dear is going back to work,

Im going back to school next week

for 2 days, and another week no class.

Till 8/3/2010 then 10 days later

is MY BIRTHDAY !! ~

So excited, anyway I also don't think
Im celebrating my birthday.

Getting boring, as long as I celebrate it

with Dear, Im okay ;D.

I don't think chalet I will still continue.

Arranging a meeting is a problem ,

organizing a chalet is even worst.

So must as well, just don't celebrate.

Im turning 16 in 1 month time! ;).

Just another 2 years, I wants to enjoy my life

and tied myself down with my Dear boy when
I turn 18 ;). Just want to get married with Dear

and be in a happy family with him.

Anyway, I've know what I wants to know already.

Im really happy that I've know it already.

Yes yes , 2 years later also a CAR LICENCE!!

Yes, Im getting very excited to turn 18,

but still got 2 years to go.

So hopefully me and Dear , happily past these 2 years.

Seriously, I really hope we can walk down

our future together. Im not so urge to

have shall feeling with any of my Boyf.

I really hope it's going to be the best for both of us.

Thou now, both our path might be tough

but shouldn't be a problem because

I know both of us can walk pass all these,

because those in the past was even way

tougher to walk pass by we walked through

all the obstacles.

Dear , I love you now, love you

forever ! ;) Thank you for

supporting me and telling me it's okay

and telling me you love me every night.

I really hope you'll be the Papa of my kids,

hope you'll be the one smiling with me from now till

both our teeth drop, joking and making fun

of each other till we has winkles on our face.

Holding each other's hand even

when we fall asleep, every night

before sleeping we shall watch

drama before sleeping and continue our habits

till the day the both of us last breathe , even

next life I hope I know you Dear.

I really hope I do. ;) This is how much I love you.

I cannot predict what will happen tomorrow,

but I can predict my life without you,

it'll be meaningless and pointless.

So hold me tight cause Im couldn't let you go. ♥

MOOD SPOILED.

2010-02-12T10:22:00.002+08:00

I have already been awake cause

of that stupid maid , when she's packing the bed.

Im already fucking fed up,

and now I try to not let anything affect my mood.

But I just don't understand why people,

like to be so busy bodies. I've learn

when it's not my problem don't bother

cause when you being kind to help out,

but they think that we are SO STUPID
WANTS TO HELP THEM OUT.

I can don't bother and just fuck care,

throw everything back to the owners to

care!! FUCK FUCK FUCK! ~ Im

fucking angry ! ~ Boiling hot.

I HAD ENOUGH! ~

I DON'T FUCKING OWE ANYONE HERE.

IF THAT PERSON IS NOT WILLING

TO CALL BACK AND AT LEAST INFORM,

THEN IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT.

WHEN THE MAID DOESN'T WANT TO

COME OUT FROM THE BATHROOM,

IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT.

FUCKING PISS , BOILING PISS.

Gloomy Thursday

2010-02-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

I felt gloomy and tired the whole day today.

But overall I survived another day.

Tomorrow will be having lesson as usual ,

might end late late late! Hair setting and Messy Bun.

;), Im a happy gal , I don't expect anything from life

anything fantasy or anything, just a simple

one... Well, counting down 3 days to CNY &

V'day is on the same day! ;D

Omg, tomorrow Im meeting my dear Cindy for lunch

Eileen also because we're going to do something

for our Boyf's for Valentine Day!

Sending Dear's Valentine Day to him tomorrow also.

Hopes he likes it ;D

So excited about doing it , I've been complaining

to Eileen about it! Haha. She saying

Im very excited , and I find myself irritating

cause I keep asking isit very I don't want,

I scare too big and blah blah blah

Poor her , hearing all my complains.

Im so so so going to stop complaining and just

do, don't worry if it can be finished anot.
Most important is the thought

that counts. ;)

Well , I don't expect he's present for me,

cause if he take a RVF out

I will be happy enough cause I has free ride,

home whenever Im in town or

when I have school . Haha ;P

As long as we're together , Im happy enough.

I don't want to regret losing him.

I don't want regret making the

wrong decisions in life.

I text-ed Dear and told him he's V'day present

will be delivered to he's working place tomorrow.

& he's asking what isit , I said something filling & nice.

He told me " watever" haha.

Cause I told him " present cannot be told. "

But I REALLY HOPE HE LIKES IT !!

Eileen has exam tomorrow so we ended our chat

but definitely tomorrow there will be pictures

being uploaded. ;D Here and FB.

Tomorrow Im shifting to my Grand-aunt place

for few days maybe till 3rd day of CNY.

Anyway, yup yup 3rd day of CNY ,

there's programs but don't know what yet

Michy's place or KTV.

Hmm shall ask Michy. Maybe I shall go
Eileen place's also ! Haha ;P.

Since this sweetie asked me to go over her place,

for dinner when Im free. Haha.

Then sometimes when her boyf aint around

we can have a girls over night.

She's really a very sweet and lovely person.

Have I ever mention ? I use to don't like her,

cause I thought she's proud. Haha , but end up knowing

her already she's a very sweet and funny person.

Her boyf too, thou I still yet to see her boyf.

Hope they last long eh!! I wanna attend

your wedding dinner! ;D.

;) Im sneezing away I bet Dear is thinking about me (LOL).

In he's dreams.. Haha. Well, after tomorrow class,

Saturday another mask to be applied before making up.

& also also all the primer , skin lotions and hair serum.

& IM READY FOR CNY !!!

WOOTS ~ Im going to collect Ang Bao. ;D

Love love love , ;D

Shall go off ;D blog tomorrow night with Pictures.

;) ;)

2010-02-11T01:17:00.004+08:00

Class today about Eyeshadow,

Im going to do my eyeshadow and everything

so CNY Im going to look at my very best!

;) Are your excited for my CNY photos

and my CNY looks?

;)

Green and Brown eyeshadow.

;) Happy and thick lashes with sexy

dress and high heels. ;)

With straight hair ?

Still thinking. Haha ;D

Dear's Valentine Day present will appear

infront of him on the Friday. I hope

he really likes it , if not I will be sad ;(.

Anyway, after school went dinner with Eileen,

at Kovan the Punggol Nasi Lemak there

to eat the Mince Meat Noodle and she ate

" Dong Fen". And after eating we walked back to

Kovan Mrt and she called her dad to pick her up,

then I cabby home. That sweetie waited for me

till I board the cab. Love you gal , see you on Friday ;).

Im tired, wants to sleep, but I just feel like staying

awake awhile more.. Hmm , ktv on 3rd day of CNY.

with mummy and her boyfriend, don't know if

Dear wants to go. But hopefully he'll come along.

Cause without him I will be bored. ;(

Love a few new song from Luo Zhi Xiang

& Yang Cheng Ling ;D.

And one song from Sam Lee " Yuan Liang Wo Mei You Shuo."

Nice song hear it ;) Im missing my big dear dear.
Remembering the way he hugs me to sleep

that day and always putting he's heavy leg over mine.

Seriously , a big thank you to him cause of him

I really knows what I really wants.

Maybe I made some mistakes in life, but well I don't

intend to remember them. Thou it's part of my memories,

yes like I've said they are memories so leave them behind and

look what is important in future. I can admit ,

I've already looking out for Hotels , Gowns, Make Up artist,

Photographer , Videographer , Out-door shooting Venue.

Table arrangement and everything.

I always remember Dear says , " put buffet lah so expensive everything.

downstairs eat " . Then I'll say " okay , but I want curry chicken as dish eh."

Haha he'll always smack my head after saying that. (LOL)

cause he say , only funeral have curry chicken. Haha,

so my meaning way even the day I die also won't put

buffet !

He always make me laugh and Im always doing stupid things

to make him laugh. Seriously ask me give him

up for something, I rather I give that something up.

But if it's studies , work , family or friends I won't.
Cause , I know as long as he treats me good

my family won't ask me to give him up.

Friends , they'll love what I love as long as he don't bully me ;p

Studies , work maybe these 2 MIGHT make me

thinking of going overseas to have more

experiences. But if we get marry,

I don't mind going through more hardship with him.

Seriously , he completes me, w/o him

life is totally meaningless.

Im grateful that he's around me this 10th months.

;D Dear, I love you. Okay, Im going bed nighty! ;D

Full of crap.

2010-02-10T11:59:00.002+08:00

Yes yes, my house there's a BATMAN living here.

How irritating can it be. Such asshole are staying here.

Imagine he was outside with my aunt

to buy groceries for home purpose,

he ate KFC outside with my aunt and one of my cousin

when my Grand-ma & Mummy was at

home LOOKING AFTER he's kids.

& my Mum and Grand-ma & the maid at home

haven't eaten their dinner.. He's outside but

he came home w/o food for my Grand-ma and Mum.

& my grand-ma asked my aunt

to get food from downstairs as my mum

wasn't feeling well and she's very tired.

& guess what this " BATMAN " said?!

" Don't know how to ask your sister go buy mer?

So you can bath for the kids."

IN THE FUCKING FIRST PLACE,

YOU'RE OUT OF THE HOUSE,

ASKING MY GRAND-MA AND MUM

TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR KIDS!

& YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING BUY FOOD FOR THEM!

If not because of your kids , you think

my Grand-ma wants to stay with you

in your fucking house!?

Use your fucking brain and think , w/o

my Grand-ma you think your wife can work ?

You think your kids won't ended up in

hospital because of your stupid maid !

We pity the 3 kids not you or your wife.

Don't think that we owe you people

so they are here to take care of your kids.

You owe us more than we owe you.

Fucking jerk.

I can't believe such creature living in this world.

Even animals care for their love one, look

out of their love one... But you? You're

definitely worst than a ANIMAL.

Chinese got one saying

" LIAN CUI SENG DOU BU RU"

Yes, you're worst off than a beast.

Another post .

2010-02-09T00:37:00.004+08:00

One post and another, well this post is about family.

My grandma is back from Taiwan ;) .

Well , me Anabelle Huang, will never let anyone

bully my family anymore.

I didn't express my love to my family properly,

but Im really very protective towards them

no matter how much I grumbles about them

is because of the irritations, but when

people are bullying her, I feels angry.

Like etc , today I went to pick her up at the airport.

& there's this big ang mo taking he's luggage and he knock

into my grandma , the moment I saw her lose her

balance I wanted to just rush in and box the

big ang mo. I don't give a damn how big ,

nobody is to allow to bully anyone in my family.

They should understand the conquers to it.

Especially to my mum or my grandma.

AND to that UNCLE of mine, Don't think

that you're still a freaking good guy in people's heart.

Everybody knows what you've done and those

are cannot be erase. Stop showing a face

just because you're the only man in the house,

I respects my dogs more than you. Why !?

Because you don't fucking gain to be respected.

If you think by showing a face people will

respect you , please look into the mirror

and see your face. My grandma just touched

down the plane today and he insist of going

giant to buy CNY stuff.. Why not buy earlier than now!?

STUPID.

Yes , I hate my uncle & my grandfather.

To me, my family is only ladies plus my twins cousins

which is boy lah.. I bet I don't need to repeat stories

in my life anymore, cause Im really trying v hard to

forget. That beautiful scars is healed , but wasn't

fully healed, cause I couldn't let certain things go.

Im very tired in forgetting them.

Well , valentine day coming! ;)

Dear be prepared to receive your present from me ;).

Better love them, haha! ;P

Dear this month we don't have anniversary ! Haha

cause there's not 30th this month! ;)

But over all we've been together for 10 months

thick and thins , toughness in life and those happy

moments in life. Thou our quarreling last a week usually.

But , we still tolerate and walked till what we're today.

Thou there's unexpected things happening

but it's a obstacles we went through.

Thou several times we thought of giving up ,

thought of breaking up.

But end up when we both cool down and think over

it, it was just out of the anger. But seriously,

I think that I should settle down

( Not meaning getting married).

But , engaged myself..

No more third party coming in , no more fourth or fifth

party coming in, just him and only him.

If a person can change me from

a freaking stubborn girl till what I think

is right , why not just stop at this guy.

And never think of there's someone better out there.

Cause he might be the only one left

that I want.

Im done thinking , 3 years down the road.

on the 26th May 2012 shall be our wedding day.

Weekend and the closest to our anniversary.

30th May 2009. ;)

Maybe Im thinking too far, but this

is the guy that I wants to settle down with.

Whatever thick and thins we have already gone through

when the whole world told us to give up on

each other, but we still held on so tightly.

No matter how many obstacles come in between us ,

we still went on smoothly. So what more

obstacles are there that will break us up.

I thank those ex and ppl that has dumb me for

my attitude I thank people that dumb me

for another girl , I thank people dumb me because

Im stubborn , immature, petty & attitude.

Cause because of your I've meet him today.

I also want to thank those people that make me dump you

because your show me that you didn't treasure and appreciate

what I've done for your. So a big thankyou.

Thou your really hurt me alot when your dump me,

but at the end I've learn a lesson , never let anyone

change me into a person Im not when you don't explain

but force me to change into someone better cause

you cannot tolerate. Or DON'T APPRECIATE OR CHERISH ME.

Thou during our quarreling I will think of he's bad point

and think why must I tolerate , but a r/s takes 2 hands to clap.

So , he get angry and piss off is because he cared because

he love me. He gave me the attention I wanted,

the appreciation and treasure he show me.

Love and care , he don't express it out, cause

he tell me " you should know I love and care for you,

but if you want to hungry yourself I also can't do anything."

Haha. So ya this is the way he express he's love.

BIG THANK YOU DEAR...

( you support me when we at our hardest period,

you held my hand and tell me you'll be always behind me

supporting me and loving me. and up to today, you still did.

Im really very touched to what you've done.

Really very touched and the way you tell me to love my

family and care for them. You change me into what I am today.

you make me think for my future and love myself.

because you love me and you want the best

for me... so you're always here for me. " ;)

While typing this Im crying. Cause

I felt the amount of love he gave me ;).

Dear thank you , I love you.

XOXO !~

OUTING !

2010-02-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

My day today was all outing, from Dear's place

to Michelle's place, den to the Airport, then back

to Dear's place den town, wanted to walk to

lucky already and Cass last minute say she'll

join me and Michy for lunch then walk back

to MRT station and waited for her then we walked back

to Lucky and meet Michy for lunch. Fish soup ,

just beside OCBC forgot the name.

Then we went to buy bubble tea, and off to looked for

my Dear dear, at he's work place. Hehe ,

then we walked back to CK tangs , cause Michy

is going back to work and we're going Far East Plaza,

to shop around. Shopped from 4.30pm till 6.40pm

cabbed to school and the uncle really piss me

off big time, urghhs he went wrong way and he still argue with me.

And he expects me to stop at Cantoment and walked to my

school. Thou the distance is not very far,

but what's the purpose of taking a taxi !?

Means stop where the destination I want to go right?!

If not what's the whole idea.

& he was saying but need to pay ERP

and stuff. I was so boiling hot with him.
& he couldn't stop jerking he's stupid taxi.

Makes me and Cass nearly puked.

So reached class, prepare the skin and everything

we start our lesson ;).

When class ended wanted to have a dinner with

Eileen and her model but when we went off

most of the food store are closed! ~

So we took train home. On the way back

we're talking about our r/s. What they brought of us

on valentine day. I find Eileen's bf is quite cute! Haha

cause of what he brought for her!! ;)

;)

2010-02-07T21:03:00.003+08:00

Yo! Time flies CNY IS just

next week is next week!

Grandma is coming back tomorrow

and Im freaking happy

cause all the goodies from Taiwan will

be brought back !

Hmm I'm worried for class tomorrow,

cause I didn't get any models yet.

Urghhs! ~ Angry ley.

Im also meeting Cassandra in the afternoon tomorrow

for her CNY clothing! See I told you that ,

I've alot of meeting for CNY.
Haha , But well, is also because I wants

to shop. ;P

Im waiting for Eileen's turn.

She better don't bluff me, if not I will throw her

into the rubbish bin ;P. Just kidding sweetie!

;) Im glad I've know alot of beautiful babies

from Kenzo eh, Edith , Michy , Felicia , Cindy & Eileen.

;)

Your are the most important babes in my life. ;)

Touch to see this right? Haha ;P.

Anw, today's outing was just BORED~

but overall it's a okay one.

I was out with my aunt ( Michelle),

and my 3 rascals cousin. Yes there's only

that 3, haha. Together with my uncle ,

the maid and Angie sis.

God , I'll swear that I won't let the maid

push the stroller behind me anymore.

She keeps going over my leg,

and she doesn't feel anything. Urghhs

how angry. After that dinner then we went

back home. From United Square, I went somerset 313 ,

to meet Cassandra for awhile and went to lucky to meet dear.

Wanted to find Cindy but Dear don't want. Hmpf ,

shall look for her tomorrow. ;)

Miss her alot ley! ;(

Yes yes! This is the fragrance Im dying for.

;( It's super nice, whenever I open my

phone casing , I will smell on the cover.

Cause I spray that fragrance there.

;). My birthday wishlist eh ! ;P

Super in love with the scent. ;)

Im waiting for my KFC , and it's taking so bloody long! ;(

Im hungry not that hungry but that BIG GUY

is making noise saying it's freaking long.

10mins late, Dear say 1 min late discount. Haha!

WTH. Tsk tsk tsk right? Haha.

Hmm Im going to call KFC and ask them WHERE'S MY FOOD!!

Urghhs! piss off ley! Hmpf!

stop thinking negatively .

2010-02-07T01:12:00.002+08:00

When your mind start to think

negatively, nothing will stop you

from thinking that way.

Suddenly, I wants to enjoy life as

much as I can, don't have to be with

anyone but by myself or even just

with my family.

It doesn't matters anymore.

Cause I realize everything in life is short,

you won't know when isit going to end.

Why not live a happy life instead of

leading a unhappy and so much troubles

life. At least when it ends you know ,

you still have happy memories in life.

;)

Im out with Dear today as he's off day.

We went to bike shop at first with AG

and then we slack there till 3.30pm

and off me and Dear went to Chinatown for a short walk

CROWDED! Haha.

Then we went back to Bishan and we brought

Meatballs and home we went,

then dinner and watched Daybreakers,

but half way through that movie I fall asleep,

and now Im awake, going bed soon.
Feeling sleepy and my head is aching again,

wonder isit the weather these few days. Sigh ;(

sweetie.

2010-02-05T01:41:00.003+08:00

Sweetie , cry over it and it'll be over soon.

Don't keep inside your heart because,

he didn't treasure. You know that

you're tired, you know you're

out of breathe to fight why not just let it go.

Giving up doesn't means you're weak ;

sometimes it means that you're strong

enough to let it go.

Cry it all out and after crying,

will definitely feel better.

Sort things out.

2010-02-04T19:52:00.002+08:00

Yes I've finally sort things out,

and today mood suddenly felt relief and

starting to laugh w my heart.

Nothing got to do with me and Dear,

just that something inside my mind that I can't really

sort out with.

Now Im having a clear mind, this time

I didn't cry while thinking through it ,

thou abit moody but it was after all a better

thing after sorting it out ;D.

Anw, I've recently hearing people

trying to change their girlf or boyf to

a person they want to their partner to be.

Trust me, you'll never want to do that..

Cause after they change, you want them

to change back to what they was before,

or even they change is only for the

temporary moments. Loving a person

is love them for who they are and not love

them because you think you can change

into the person you want.

I was changed by a person

previously, but I change back shortly

cause it wasn't the time when I wanted to

change so I change just temporary.

Only till I left him and another guy till

Im with Dear now, he made the biggest change in me,

He don't force me, but tell me why I need to do.

What happened in the past,

has turn me into what I am today.

Accept a person's past because

everyone has different past..

You accept your partners past,

they'll accept your past.

;D Anna is finally happy..

& know what she wants..

Stars.

2010-02-04T00:58:00.002+08:00

We are all the stars that deserved,

to be twinkle. ;D

Im back from class and settled everything

while chatting with my both darling ,

Felicia & Michy. Tomorrow

I'll be meeting up with Felicia for

a short shopping, actually we are meeting

in the noon cause she's working morning

but who knows, that now they've changed

rules, morning need to be a FULL TIMER.

RAH!~

But well, I doesn't really wants to shop much cause,

Im just getting my slippers and I wish that

I can get it at Far East. Since my CNY clothing,

my shoes , my eyelashes and even my make up,

are already READY~ haha. ;D

Anw, class today ; Tools & face sculpting.

Was fun cause they has got so many

to learn today, well Eileen miss

her class, due to her bacteria infections(?).

So, she's resting at home for 3 days,

but hope she's gonna be fine real soon.

Take great care okay babe? ;D

Well, there's simply alot of things

running through my mind, alot way to much.

But well, I don't intend to reveal much

of it , cause I find it's not the right time.

Thou, it's kind of bad to keep my troubles inside

myself, but well it doesn't really matters,

when I sort things out and thought things out,

eventually things will be as fine.

I thought through alot,

my future, my dreams , my goals and my purpose living

in this world. Not to be a useless or someone,

brainless, is to be someone useful and someone

whom know how to over come obstacles

and rocky road in life, like what

I've posted in FB ; Being happy doesn't

mean everything is pefect. It means you have

decided to look beyond the imperfections.

Whenever I see a child's innocents and they way

they wants to know things, I wish last time

I've didn't asked, I wish last time I didn't know,

will it lesser my pain now?? I wish the way I grow

can be slower down and goes at the same time

as my age, but it can never happen anymore.

Cause I've knew too much nonsense happening.

Even up to know, what happened 7 years ago ,

up to today, Anna didn't forget what happened.

Remembering every single movement and

the way that incident happened.

That real live thing that acts like a movie.

Keep replaying inside my head.

Never once forgotten.

I can forget everything I can forget my ex-boyf.

But never once I forget this incident ,

never stop feeling back what kind of feeling

they gave at that moment.

I don't know what to do to forget it anymore.
It's just a darkness inside my life, that

I cannot come out from.

What a beautiful day.

2010-02-02T13:42:00.002+08:00

Yes yes, Im awake since 7am.

Till now, Im going for a short nap soon.

I just drank a mouth full of coffee,

but Im falling asleep soon.

Im very tired.

Anyway , yes very long since I blog.

Reason due to busy shedule.

Class, job hunting and busy shopping for CNY

clothing.. Yes yes, I've already gotten most of

my dresses for CNY. I just receive a

bag of online clothing from Hula & Co.

My jersey dress, sexy and nice.

Haha not a bad choice of choosing it.

Then I admitted to hospital due to

high fever dripped and everything,

online if FB also using my Iphone.

Yesterday's class is wonderful !

Hair setting on dummy head,

Sek ( if Im not wrong with the spelling)

he set the hair before us and he

actually style it and undo it at the end of the class.

It's damn nice the way he style that dummy's

hair. He's good... ;D But sad he's going

back after CNY I think?

Okay, my shedule is packed till CNY is over.

Tomorrow class, Thursday will be

shopping with Felicia in town cause she

hasn't gotten her CNY clothing so

going with her.. Then waiting for Eileen

to tell me when her exams are over,

and we're going shopping again.

The March 1st or 3rd if Im not wrong

I will be going to choose Geraldine's wedding gown

with her. Then slowly slowly as time pass,

18 March is coming. 44 more days to go.

Time flies, that time I was counting 70 over

days for my birthday at, the blink

of my both eyes, it's already 44 more days.

So fast time really flies.

throat hurting ;(

2010-01-26T12:16:00.002+08:00

Yes, throat hurting again. ;(( Sigh,

Sick now better than CNY,

cause I wants to eat CNY GOODIES!

Haha, I think yesterday's seaweed & bubble tea

will turn out to be these way? Too much

of a bubble tea. Time to cut down on

bubble tea.

Yesterday's class was really interesting,

it's eyebrow trimming ;)).

I trimmed Cass eyebrow and I bet

she's loving it now! Haha.

Better appreciate it hor!

Im going to trim mine later on.

Haha.

Nose running, throat hurting, ANNA NEED
a good rest if not it will be worst!

A Perfect Day.

2010-01-23T20:01:00.004+08:00

A perfect day from me.

Yesterday after class I was told that

Dear told me that he's going to

Malaysia w Ah Kang & he's girlf,

today he asked am I able to get my passport.

So I told him no, and he said he'll go alone.

So while eating Ah Kang called and ask

whether wants to have dinner but Dear

told him okay, so we head out and

went to eat " yong dao hu" at Henderson Market.

So after Ah Kang fetched us we went to fetch

Xiao Hao & off we head to eat.

I wanted to eat Sting Ray, but cause of

XIAO HAO!!! I didn't get to eat!

I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS LOR! HAHA.

So Dear & me brought satay to eat.

Yucks Yucks Yucks, it's damn oily so

after I get home faster drink yakult,

to digest before sleeping.

Today woke up by Dear cause of he's phone.

And smoking while Im sleeping,

so he just keeps telling me byebye,

he's going off and stuff.

So I just kept quiet, till 2pm

and I was like don't need to see,

you're not going malaysia already.

Haha, so he went to bath and he told me,

after he change, " didn't you want to

buy bubble tea to drink from Amk central,

still don't want to change wait for what? "

I was totally shock and went to bath

and fast fast went out to AMK central,

at first wanted to get my bubble tea,

but end up not getting cause it's

a damn long queue, so we went to have

our lunch MOS buger.

But end up we didn't get my bubble tea,

off we went to bishan for a walk and NTUC

is where we went, getting our tibits &

my favorite 2 packets strawberries & 4 packets of

Tao Kei Neo seaweed ;D, a magazine. And off we went home.

;D.

Dear leg was hurting and he was walking damn slowly

but end up he stills accompany me out

afraid that Im being bored at home.

But I was piss cause I didn't get my BUBBLE TEA!

Ughhs, but it's okay. Im going out tomorrow

after accompanying Dear end works, we MUST get

the bubble tea. He promised me that

he'll get for me. SO YES! MAKE SURE.

HE GET! If not Im going to bugg him till

he gets for me.

PS ;/ Please be INFORMED, next friday KTV at night.

XIAO HAO PLEASE MAKE YOURSELF FREE HOR!

Recommend

2010-01-21T17:16:00.002+08:00

Im back from my great grand-uncle's funeral.

It's very sad that he has left us but it's

also a happy thing that he left, cause he

went w he's family around him.

& he's together w he's love one at this moment.

I really had a big crying when I know he's around us,

it's a v bad one, cause I felt that pain.

Anyway, Rest in peace okay?

with love, great grand-niece.

Well, I recommend a few bridal shop & bridal photography

here cause I know that my friends & relative might

be getting wedding and preparing for their wedding.

I recommend this Ambi Photography

http://www.ambiphotography.com/

& Bridal gown, from My Bridal Room

http://www.mybridalroom.com/

there's package there, but it's better to

get the photography done by Ambi,

cause they really do a good job,

& there's stories and have photography.

They are really good or maybe better.

Okay, Im feeling irritated w people around,

shouting and screaming around,

speaking loudly and stuff.

I don't know why but I having mens,

a very heavy one so Im easily irritated don't come

and irritated me.

Im going back to dear's place later on,

meeting him at lucky ;)) , kk Im going a short

rest & go find my dear later ;D.

Ps; / " Tai Gong ", your laughter is always remembered,

please be happy ;D , cause your family will be

happy too.

Not postponing anymore.

2010-01-21T00:25:00.010+08:00

I remembering my Boyf & me was discussing to

get marry 3 years down the road &

getting so ready for a marriage down the road,

3 years later. But recently I talked to him

about postponing our wedding till later,

when our career is both stable.

But, right now after reading a touching story

I decided to continue going for my dreaming

getting marry at the age of 18.

It doesn't mean young age can't get marriage,

it doesn't mean that, if you love someone why not?

Even old people says, getting marry young

isn't good, but seriously, is whether you're

going to tolerate your husband and

are both of you really stabled?

I want a perfect wedding, a very perfect one.

I don't need my man to be perfectionist,

but I need my wedding to be perfect.

I love my boyf thou sometimes I hate him

cause of the way he's not bringing me out

cause of he's work.

But after awhile I just seems to understand

he's the one that really loves me and really

really go for what I love & need instead of want.

He give me a sense of secure and

he'll be always holding me in he's arm even when he's

sleeps. He never left me in the cold.

& whenever Im over at he's place,

whenever I kicked the blanket off me,

he'll be the one waking up and cover it back for me.

Thou at times he irritates me and he made fun

of me, but most to most he's the one

that love me most other than my Grandma & my Mother.

Remembering we walked through

thick and thins, remembering us being just friends to

couple makes me really wants to laugh.

& whenever thinking back it was the reason why

I held him on so tightly to me. At times

during quarrels we thought of giving up,

but at the very end, he cleans up my tears

& treat me eat MacDonald everytime

after we quarreled.

Remembering that even at 1am I told him

I wants to eat Swee Choon Carrot cake,

he'll fetch me all the way till Mustafa to

get them hot and nice for me.

He never complains whenever I told him
I wants him to cook maggie.

Coming 9 months, we walked through thicks and thins,

Walking towards our dreams and

walking towards our future, he still held me in he's

arm, count me lucky? I have a very understanding

boyf & really love and dote me this much.

Thou all the sweet talking stops, the honeymoon

period stops, but till now he's still a

very sweet boyf at times, thou words aren't spoken

but, the way he do and make me feel that

Im being treasured by him.

Well, I bet people are thinking what is My plan for wedding!?

Haha, Im going to be a make up artist,

BEST GROWNS, BEST MAKE UP,

BEST HAIRSTYLING,

& OF COS MY BESTIES AS MY SISTERS ;D.

Haha, well this is my idea of make up for the day.

A Evening a more obvious make up.

A day hair style Bun. ;D

Ideal but not what I really wants.

I couldn't get the picture of my favorite gown

but here's the website to it .

http://www.mybridalroom.com/Gowns.aspx

the 5 gown from the Left.

A gown looking like a tube but

attach w a turtle neck collar all the way

till the back of the gown. It's a turtle neck w lace ,

and it's v sexy can be long and when parted

it'll be a short gown &

with Roses around the lower of the gown.

Sames goes for my Evening gown.

It'll be the 1st one counting from the right.

It's a kind of sky blue gown toga.

It's v nice. I love it alot. ;D

& NOT LEAST! My tea ceremony,

a Red Traditional Kua. Like this below

Most important is the Red Dress above,

is a kind of respect I pay to my husband's Mother

& same goes to my relative. Thou at

mine age kind of weird to wear things like

these cause I usually don't like,

but if the day Im getting marry, yes.

Im wearing that, cause is a kind of respect.

A traditional tea ceremony dress, is a yes yes.

& of cos! A PERFECT SHOE TO FITS

all my beautiful and lovely gowns.

Of cos, a full cover HEELS. Not only one pair.

But few, my main gown one pair matching

w my tea ceremony dress for the day

and one pair for the dinner matching with

the Bridal Gown and Evening Gowns.

My pre-wedding and actual day wedding photos,

must be taken perfectly cause it's my big big day.

So how do you think? Perfect enough,

just that Hotel Im still thinking where.

Something grand & elegant, giving face

to my mum & my future husband mother & father.

& Def* there should be slide shows of my wedding pictures,

speech given to my family & he's family ;D.

Awaiting for that day to come. ;))

Dogs

2010-01-19T02:12:00.002+08:00

Remember watching a show on Channel 8

on Sunday, " Shuo Zai Jian" ( say goodbye).

It's talking about a dog w her owner for 16 years.

& her dog is dying of old & sick.

All she do is sleep and sleep the whole day.

The vet told her, " I hope she see this christmas. "

& I think her owner was getting marry on that day

or maybe earlier. The sisters & her owner brought

her down the Red Carpet and till she meets her

husband and the end of the walk.

The dog just continue sleeping

in her owner's arms, the part where tears just couldn't

stop rolling around my eyes, I doesn't wants

to cry because Dear will sure make fun of me.

So I decided to clean them off before he saw them.

Then I started imagine when one day

my 3 babies are leaving me, Baby , Boby & Jack.

Imagine one day they'll sleep & never wakes up again.

Imagine I'll never hear their barking & they're

tails swinging left and right whenever Im home.

I love 3 of them really do.

I dislike people buying or adopting a dog,

but ending up giving them away or left them stray.

Im sorry to mention as some of my friends do.

But Im not saying your , I just read a post

& angry w that person saying about dogs.

Dogs aren't companions, they are a live.

They deserve to be love and deserve to be

treated like a human too. Thou they don't

go toilet themselves or buy food for themselves

& neither can they clean their own waste or bowl.

Yes, they are human's friend but you buy a dog,

because you love them and wants to be their closet one,

not just to doll them up and make them your

companions when you're lonely and throw

them away when you find them a trouble.

If from the very start, you dislike and think

you cannot commit the time & efforts,

please don't ruin their life. Imagine you're

the one being abandon? Being told that

you're just a fucking companion ?!

How would your heart feels?!

Whenever I see stray dogs, I just wanna bring them

home and tell them, they deserve to be loved.

But usually I will just get food, cause I know

I don't have that ability cause I've already gotten 3

dogs at home. I've tried sending them away due

to shifting of house. But end up whenever I give them away,

my heart hurts and never stop crying and

thinking about them. So I will never thought

of that idea anymore.

They don't deserve life like this,

cause neither do we deserved, dogs has life too.

If you think you couldn't commit and couldn't

bring them 6 times down stairs, you can paper

train them and just clean up the newspaper.

Or wash the toilet floor, it doesn't waste much of your time.

If you're going on a holiday you can bring them to

your relative place or a friend that's willing to help

to take care, instead of because of your

happiness you buy a dog and giving it away at

the end of the day again.

THEN WHAT'S THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT

OF HAVING ONE DOG!

Okay speaking back about life,

I've been to class as usual, Im early today

so waited for the rest to arrive and sits in for class.

Today's lesson was boring and I wasn't in that kind

of mood, so I just sit back quietly listens.

Soon Jyue finishes the lesson and we started asking

her about the make up box and stuff.

Then classed officially ended at 9.30pm

and I took a cabby down to Toa Payoh to

pay a visit to my great grand-uncle's

funeral everyone was shock to see me.

As I felt funny in Fake eyelashes, Black Top,

Kaki green jacket & blue shorts. I feel funny

cause , it's a funeral abit disrespectful , but I didn't

had a choice cause it was after class I went there.

So after I reached prayed and off to buy Mac to

eat, it was breakfast cum lunch cum dinner cum supper.

Haha, I skipped meal the whole day. Think before class

starts, Im gonna get a soya bean milk for a fill of stomach

den lesson starts, starting to crave for soya milk. ;P

Dear , teaches me to love Soya Milk ;D ;D

Kk, Im off blog soon! ;D

RIP.

2010-01-17T15:52:00.004+08:00

I received a call from mummy,

saying Great uncle passed away.

He brought countless laughter in the past

and he's laughter is always the one

that make us laugh.

Right now he's on he's way to he's the

other end of the rainbow finding he's love one

there. He's just going to another end of the rainbow

spending he's time there, being happy.

Rest in peach great uncle,

I will never forget your laughter, cause

it's the brightest among all of us.

A Great sun tanning ;D

2010-01-17T15:42:00.002+08:00

16/1/10, Saturday.

Pictures are uploaded at FB,

great wine , great companies & a fun volleyball.

;)). It's been 4 years since I touch volleyball

skills of cos lose out alot.

As usual say meeting at 11am everyone was

late, it's about 11.30 we meet up,

when we reach the beach it was

already 12 plus. & we put down our

bags , mummy change into her bikini

and the whole tanning sessions starts ;D

Rachel jie jie brought her Red Wine along.

So imagine a nice Red Wine, great companies

and everything is so beautiful w strawberries!

If there's chocolate that will be best!

Cause Red Wine w chocolate make things even more beautiful.

We tanned till 2plus and we decided to head off

cause 3 of us are v tired by then.

So bath and stuff off we went.

I enjoy this sentosa trip ;D,

and the previous one w Dear Felicia too.

Next month another trip to the beach w

Geraldine jiejie & mummy, maybe this

time we shall go on sunday then Felicia

can join us too! ;D

Every month sentosa once ;D.

So tired .

2010-01-13T11:45:00.002+08:00

God, I didn't believe I actually woke up at 7.45am &

not getting back to bed to sleep. & I still have to

go for class later on , Im really very tired right now.

Im having swollen and puffy eyes.

It's hurting cause I didn't had enough sleep ;((.

God , Im so going to sleep early already.

My eyes are closing already.

Im talking to Judy on msn and she was like

asking if Im talking about her the previous post,

Silly , Im not talking about you. Cause you didn't

said things like that . Haha ! & I know you won't !

We're already friends for 4 yrs & counting lar.

Haha , I remember when Im at the deepest moment

you're always around . Hehe ;P

Well, I don't want to mention about anything about yesterday,

cause Im really very to think back and everything.

Im heading town to FEP to get my dresses & Michy

to get her heels. SEEYA! Blog w photos soon.

Speechless towards her.

2010-01-12T13:39:00.003+08:00

Cass , don't worry Im not saying you.

Well, I meet people miscarriage and still living a happy life,

but I've never heard or seen someone like that.

Just because she has met a miscarriage 1 month ago ,

she told people she doesn't want to comment and

also don't want to know because of her miscarriage

& she's upset that people around her are getting pregnant

but not her.

I doesn't mean to be so straight forward here ,

but seriously , is getting pregnant such a big thing !?
Maybe yes , but think about it . It doesn't mean

once u miscarriage you must replace one.

I know the pain and lost of your own child ,

nobody wants too, but since it's already lost.

Then it's already too late to say anything.

I don't understand why must really have a kid

after getting marry , does it means really marriage

means A KID NEEDED TO BE BORN?!

Seriously no money no talk. Don't ever think that

marry a rich husband means you'll call for wind

and rain whenever you wants . Cause it's impossible.

Yes , I agree on young marriages but doesn't mean

I agree on most young parents . Cause when your

thinking is not even to the extend of being mature,

and really save what you earn for future and kids,

you're not ready & not prepared.

I've a ex colleague Coco , she earns and save at the same time

together with her boyf that's what I called ready even

thou their status is still boyf & girlf.

But she really spend times , take care

and even save for her kids together with her boyf.

But not get pay today spend it all by the next 2 weeks.

Is miscarriage really such a big thing? No I doubt so,

cause in the whole wide world you're not the only one.

I don't see why must it be such a big woo-ha.

Yes, maybe you'll think I don't understand the pain.

But you'll never ever understand a pain of a kid

born in a family w/o happiness or even a broken family.

I went through the pain , I walked through all these.

You'll never understand the meaning of being a

single parents child and never never understand

your kids feeling when people laughing at them.

And seeing people's family with that kind of envy.

If you think it's you then it's you. Cause it's very obvious.

Im feeling troubled.

2010-01-12T00:46:00.002+08:00

Im feeling trouble due to reasons I don't know.

I just feels like bursting into big tears,

isit school that's abit tiring and stress?

I doubt so , cause it's only the starting

of school & it should be fun instead .

Isit not enough of sleeps ? I think I had enough today.

But I still seems so troubled . Just now

while hiding inside the toilet wanting

to cry out , I was at a moment of

my own , feeling everything around me

seems to stop and even the clock has

stop ticking .

I thought to the moment I saw mummy

crying to the web-cam telling me that

someone is giving her the feeling of she's useless.

I suddenly thought through alot of past,

I want to start tearing , I don't know

what to do. I still cannot let the past off.

It seems so impossible.

I thought I have let go of it 1 year back ,

but I was wrong super wrong , cause

I didn't forget at all , it was just left in

a corner in my heart, kept some where behind

all doors & hidden behind my heart.

Maybe I cannot be compared

to anyone worst than me , but I really

never thought things like that would happened .

I never wanted to lose anything just like that.

But I don't have any choice to make.

Looking into the photos of me as a kid ,

tears just couldn't stop falling . As I can see that

smile is so true so real.

See that photo of us taken with you.

I really miss you alot, but everything

is too late to say. You left for another woman ,

you hurt everyone's heart in our family.

& you never return at all .

I still felt the scar , I still felt it as fresh as

it was . Time couldn't heal , even when I tried.

After all I believe but wish it was just a dream.

Where I know it's impossible cause it's

reality.

Gotten home from class.

2010-01-12T00:11:00.006+08:00

It's super duper fun in class today, everyone

gets their dummy head and started ,

discussing how disgust it was .

Haha , after that class start , & 9.45pm

our class ended, first thing was , PICK UP MY PHONE.

Message from a number of people,

even missed called . So I faster called

back and replied . After that Michael Tung,

came to fetch me home cause Im carrying

hell lot of things and those idiotic car was

like squeezing into a super small parking lot.

*curse & swear*

Haha , so after he fetch me home , here I am to blog

after my dinner & desert ;D.

Okay , I can't seems to wait ! Im meeting Felicia at Orchard

again on Wednesday , cause Im shopping for CNY's clothes.

The mood is here , cause everything is in RED colour.

Haha, how fast time flies. It's already the 12th of Jan,

my class has already started 4 lesson out of 60 lesson.

Haha.

Im excited for CNY clothes . Can't wait , cotton on for pyjamas

& undergarments . Hula & co. for dresses or

Far east, I shall decide since it's gonna be wearing black

this year. Hehe ;P my favorite colour .

Anw, I've came across my bf's colleague's FB profile.

Sad to say he's dad just passed away during the

first week of Jan , he wrote this to he's dad.

" 爸...遥远的你还好吗？我好想你！不管我们相隔多远，你会永远的活在我心里面，

我也知道...你会一直这样默默的守护着我 . "

Never fail after reading these, my tears roll down my eyes.

Well , what I can say is , when a person must leave he needs to leave.

So really cherish and love the person when they are around.

Especially whenever you did something wrong,

but they are the one that didn't give up hopes on you .

I use to don't understand family love, but getting mature

age by age, I really understand the meaning of loving your

family, and blood is always thicker than water.

Cause if they weren't here I won't be here.

People won't be reading my blog , this world won't have
Anabelle this gal . Maybe Im still in heaven waiting

for my turn here in this world .

Alan told me , don't compare anymore with each

other's family . Don't compare yourself with

anyone, cause you'll never find another you

any where in this world. Same name , and stuff.

But there'll never be the same person

same character same personality .

Cause there's only one you.

I really thought through alot ,

I don't want to waste another min on

hating anyone in this world , but I know

I can't love everybody cause some

really doesn't deserve my love

and doesn't appreciate my love.

Happiness is within your hands but how you see it.

;D So treasure everyone around you before it's

too late, cause you're their beloved too.

Tired ;((

2010-01-08T14:22:00.002+08:00

Im quite tired due to waking up early

to accompany Cass to the doctor at Bedok.

woke up at 9am to prepare everything.

;((

Today w/o fake eyelashes my eyes was

dropping down whenever Im doing nothing.

Restless day ;(( I still have got school later on

till I don know what time. ;((

Im tired really tired shall take a nap for now,

later go school . ;((

First Day ;D

2010-01-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

Okay, Finally I get to see my Dear Eileen ;D.

She keeps telling me that she's unglam because

she didn't even had the time to put make up!

Haha I was like she's looks okay w/o make up.

Haha, first day of class today. It's fun but abit

boring cause we're talking about Skincare.

What's SPF and UVA/B/C and blah blah blah.

I met new friends and stuff ;D they are rather cute and friendly.

;D, Im booking chalet on the March 5, 6 & 7th.

Babes make yourself free eh! ;D Sweet 16 ;))

;D but Im sharing a chalet w Dear's colleagues.

So yea, your make yourself free eh ;D

Tears just flow on the way home.

2010-01-02T18:49:00.001+08:00

Dear's Mummy, Daddy wanted to fetch Dear's

to clinic to cure he's leg cause it's swallon again yes.

But end up due to it's Saturday most clinic is closed

or half day. So they decided to bring Dear to

Tan Tock Seng hospital. I was on the car

all the while till Dear's mummy came out and said,

Dear needs to be in hospital cause he has

fever and they are giving him pain killers

to see if he's leg reduce the swell and stuff.

So we have to come home and wait, end up.

On the way home, I tried controlling.

But tears just flow like mad I hate this feelings.

Im hating why Dear's leg doesn't happens on me,

why Dear's pain don't happens on me.

So today I won't feel so much emotional going on now.

Tears rolling down, Im ignoring all incoming messages &

phone calls. Im really very down right now.

Im alone at home with Bibi, Im crying with

a million of tears, Im dying of worried.

But nobody understand. Im alone at home now

w/o watching show w/o hearing song.

Im crying like crazy. I don't know who to tell.

I only can hide everything inside my heart and

keep crying DD;

He just called and ask me to go and have a bite

of my dinner, but I really got no appetite.

I just want him to come home ;((.

Happy 8 month Anniversary ;))

2009-12-31T11:11:00.000+08:00

I totally forgotten it's the 30th, and indeed I didn't even

message him wishing him happy 8th months

like I've always do previously, sending him message

when the clock hits 12am. But this month I didn't.

& totally forgotten about it.

Went to meet up with PeiXing to get Michy's present,

and deciding what to do today, we've thought

in mind already, just that we wants to check

the price. If it's too expensive it's totally not worth!

Today should be pack like crazy due to NEW YEAR'S EVE.

People going partehh & hanging out late night.

So when taking train is a very pack thing to do.

Well, we're meeting up at 2pm bugis control, but

guess what? Im awake by 9.45am cause of

Dear and he's cirg, he's always smoking inside the

room w/o opening the window and my nose

will hurt when I smell in cirg during my sleep.

& AWAKE. Alright Michy HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY!!!

Im meeting you later for your mini B'day CELEBRATION

hope you're happy eh ;)) SEE YA!

Happy Happy Happy Happy.

2009-12-30T12:21:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to you

Happy birthday to you,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEC BABIES

happy birthday to you.

Okay, I forgot to mention on the 28 Dec,

Mikey's birthday ( Dear's colleague)

I miss my station, cause Im suppose to alight

at somerset, but I miss it and alight

at Orchard cause it's nearer to Dear's place.

& silly me walked ALL THE way from

Orchard mrt to Somerset mrt cause Im

looking for HMV!

I reached at 7.30pm and walking to lucky

only at 8.15pm. So can imagine how tiring.

Haha. But Im dumb lar, forgot to alight at somerset.

So after going to HMV to get Mikey's

present I went back to paragon to get

Orange Julius for refreshing.

Then walked back to lucky pass Mikey the disc

and wish him A HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ .

Haha. ;)) I was worried I gotten the wrong disc.

So I asked him to double checked.

Haha.

Yest 29/12/09, meet up w Cass & Vincent

to acc Cass to interview and we went K- cos

we couldn't think of what to do.

So after K, eating at Food Junction

smoke break and off to lucky to meet up with

Dear & that's the end of our trip. Haha.

Tomorrow it's 31st ~ & those whom know

one of our GREEDY friend's birthday!

Haha that's MICHYPAN!!!

She should be happy happy these few

days so many people celebrating with her lar.

Sorry we couldn't turn up for your chalet.

It's Christmas nite leh. How to go.

Haha, so sorry. ;(( Im your true friend,

just that Im busy on that day.

But Im still celebrating with you tomorrow,

& it's the actual date okay! Haha ;P

Ok lar, I know busy is not a excuse of not turning up.

Haha, but well I hope tomorrow you'll enjoy.

Dear was saying tomrrow stay at home for COUNT DOWN.

I was like anything but thought you said wanna

go see fireworks. He was like saying

see if anyone wants to go. Hehe, cause it's

a secret between us! Hehe ;P

Den he was like see how first, cause won't know what

they'll be doing. ;))

Just wait and see, thou occassion we

didn't go out but at least we spend our day together. Hehe.

78 days to my birthday!! Still so long! Haha.

But it's okay at a blink of my studies and

Dear's work it'll soon come! Haha, 78 days to my birthday.

I wish a big big surprise birthday party.

Usually my friend's birthday

We'll pretend we forget her birthday

then call her and say we wants to meet her,

and she's suppose to come down now.

No excuse. Haha, so cruel right? ;P

Den she'll say what the hell so far,

but end up all her friends and her bf is already

at that destination waiting for her.

Haha, when she reached she call either

one of us, and we'll pick her up and through out

the whole journey of walking.

We'll never wish her happy birthday or everything

we'll treat it as we forgotten and keep talking

on the phone then when reaching one

of them will stand outside of that surprise to wave so

people hiding knows she have reached.

& once she stepped into the room,

Happy birthday song come out. Haha,

SURPRISE! She immediately burst into tears.

And hits us for treating her this way. Haha.

So how cruel can we be, but it's kind of a

surprise really well planned by her

friends & boyfriends.

Well, I don't expect all these but if want also can la. HAHAHA!

;P ;P ;P My boyfriend don't reads my blog so

he won't plan such romantic surprise for me. Haha.

Hmm Im planning to do something special on he's birthday.

But I still can't think of anything cause he's

an asshole which don't appreciate! Haha just kidding lar.

LOL. 78days and 2 more years Im turning 18!! That's

the most happy day of mine. Cause.... SHHHH.

Secrets. OKOK I shall go bath, meeting PeiXing.

he's gonna kill me if Im late! ;P Bye blog soon!

Waking Zombie.

2009-12-29T10:46:00.002+08:00

Yes, Im a waking Zombie. All thanks to

Dear and he's phone call. He talk

as thou the person is deaf in the phone.

How cruel and woke me up from

my beauty sleep. How idiot.

I shall make him sleep late late tonight.

Cause I couldn't sleep late enough.

Im meeting Vincent and Cass

later on see even she last min PS me

I still accompany her okay.

Hmm Im lazy to sit infront of the computer.

Im going to lie on the bed and eat

my CHIPS! ;)) Loves blog later on ;))

Deleted.

2009-12-28T15:14:00.001+08:00

I deleted earlier on that post. Cause

after eating 2 chocolate and drinking Ribena,

makes me feels better already.

Thou those disappointment still lingering

inside my head, but sigh forget it.

I shouldn't be so petty and shouldn't have

said those hurtful words to them on

my blog.

Chocolate is still the one that cheers me up whenever

Im upset, disappointed, angry or whatever.

I remember I used to hate chocolate

cause it's fattening and I used to

always eat and it's kind of disgusting.

But after stop eating for almost 2 years,

Im starting to eat chocolate again.

BUT, it's certain chocolate.

I feel kind of sleepy cause I didn't slept well,

last night. But it's okay since Im at home.

I shall take a nap, bye peeps.

Wonder why!

2009-12-27T19:17:00.002+08:00

I've been receiving another comment from

my Boyfriend's friend about me again.

Haha, William was saying that Im very "dao"

never even said Hi whenever I walked passed.

Haha, this is the 2nd person saying Im "dao",

first was Ah Liang, saying that I look so piss whenever

walking into Lucky Plaza.

Okay, I admit that whenever I walked pass all shops,

I never smiled to anyone around, unless

those I talked to before and really chat

with before, Etc ; Ah Chomp ; More Pearl ; Ah Kang ;

Ah long; Siam Kia, Haha.

Im waiting for Dear to come home now.

Now already 8.28pm. Hmm, Im waiting and

drinking Ribeana ;)). & Im waiting to

see if Dear wants to eat noodle.

I want to buy Rojak, Im craving for it. ;P

Wonder if Dear will buy it for me when he

is downstairs. I bet he won't.

He now a days already seldom buy Pink Dolphine for me.

;((.

Well, 2010 is coming!!! ;)) YAYNESS!

Im so so so happy!! Haha.

Due to school starts and also because it's a

new year! Means, this year will be a memory

and I can forget about all unhappiness

from some jerks or asshole 2009 will be the

worst year of mine. ;))

Thou Im happy on my birthday celebration cause first

year I spend with Michy, Felicia & Mr.Yip ( DEAR) ,

then I celebrate the first birthday with Dear &

he's friends.

Then our 1st outing as a couple,

first meeting of he's parents,

first meeting of he's friends and movie with

he's friends and everything ;)).

& slowly dinner ; outing ; praying

together with he's friends.

Till our first quarrel, our first disagreement.

;))

Thou all these are memoreable but

I just dislike this year,

maybe due to some reasons.

& I've learned, understand the man or woman,

before judging them with

what people said. I will learn from my mistakes.

Nothing Special.

2009-12-27T13:15:00.001+08:00

Nothing special today, Im staying at home.

Blogging and later I wants to train my Cammy

on street fighter IV. In order to win Dear. LOL.

I know FAT FAT HOPE.

Hmm, 4 more days to 2010, 8 more days till school starts.

& 81 more days to my birthday. Arghhs,

still so long way to go... Let's just wait. Hehe. ;P

Dear is still thinking about he's bike matters.

Cause that time he said, if don't want the bike

already don't have to pay.

Then now when Papa went down and ask him

he say need to pay $4k! WTF.

So Dear asked him to pick up the phone and

ask him and everything end up he told Dear

" Say only mar, I use mouth say what."

Hmm such asshole.

So now we deciding to whether take back the bike or what.

Sigh, Dear said, he'll pay the insurance and

everything, but then if the Error 2 is not fixed,

he won't pay a single cent. Sigh, why!!

People let him do but then he just

don't appreciate it but always doing half done job

for people. Sigh big sigh.

Kk, Im going to watch my Drama, see ya guys ;))

Happy Birthday BI BI!!

2009-12-27T13:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BI BI.

It's bi bi birthday today. Haha but almost

all of us went out of the house, due to work

and school stuff ;P Poor him was home alone

with Dear's mummy as usual. Haha, but today

he's birthday got special Dear took

my bowl of chicken for him to eat!

Lol, as many know Im some how not taking

meat as much as I can. Especially like Chicken,

beef and pork. Im taking Fish if my meals,

have Fish. But sometimes I eat cause Dear's mummy cooked.

Alright shall end here ;)) Bye peeps.

Wish You A Merry Christmas

2009-12-27T02:40:00.003+08:00

We wish you a merry christmas,

we wish you a merry christmas,

we wish you a merry christmas

& a happy new year. ;))

It's Christmas today. Last night wasn't fun at all.

We went rounding after all fun with 30 over cars.

& ending up losing them all. Lol. So after

that we went to eat and some food court with Ah Leong.

& he send us back home to sleep.

No photos taken. Lol, kind of lazy to take pics.

PONDERING INTO THOUGHTS.

2009-12-23T12:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I really wish a human don't

have to think so much in life.

Don't have so much actions and so much

lying in life. But it's almost impossible

to do so. I wonder why and asking myself

why cannot.

Why a man cannot love just one woman

and forget about having another affair outside.

Why woman cannot voice out whatever

they doesn't like and let their partner

knows what they're not happy with.

Why why why.

There's so much why inside my head,

there's so much impossible in my heart.

I cannot stop wondering if people is lying,

and I cannot stop wondering the past.

God, why you create us with feelings,

why you create us with such feeling that

is feels so miserable.

Imagine if the world has no feeling, just

like zombie, no feelings nothing.

At least when you know your partner lying

or having another affair outside you

won't feel that pain and that unbearable

tears flowing feeling. Why God create us with

Greed, one is not enough, must be more than one.

I really want to stop this kind of

feelings and stop having such irritating mood.

I just wants to be happy and really

have a happy self. But it's almost

impossible, cause Im always pondering into

deep thoughts.

我相信你说的每一句
就算是明知是甜言蜜语
可是我总觉得哪里有问题
也许这些话语不只说给我听

我相信是因为你的犹豫
所以把感情陷入难题
没关系我有做坏人的勇气
就算毁灭自己也要捍卫爱情

我全都相信相信你说的每一句
每一句我答应我可以我不会负你

每一句只差一句我爱你
就算是一切都变成回忆
可是我逃不开也回不去
也许这些话语是讽刺的回音
所以把我永远困在这里
没关系我会继续撑下去
给我勇气呼吸我只需要一句
我想你说不出我爱你

Family ♥

2009-12-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

Im starting to scare of losing

my family members, my mum, my grandma

& my great grand-mother.

Whenever a year pass, I will be thinking in my

head, another year lesser to spend my time with

them, sometimes I wish really time stop at

a point where is the happiest time.

Maybe my happiest time with my family

was when I was 4-6 years old.

Thou that period of time, my r/s with my mum

wasn't that good.

Last night I've watched the Life Transformer

on channel 8, talking about this family needed

people's help and talking about their story.

At every scene when their eldest son

is crying when he's mum left for work,

makes me filled my eyes with tears

and it really hurts.

I've heard the worst thing I've heard about

Singapore. Both their son wasn't able to

help themselves with the basic living

of life. When their eldest son ran away from

home, he was burned by cigarette

and people hold him on the head

and bang it against the wall.

When I heard from my mum that grandma leg's

ain't doing any better my heart suddenly

felt sour, what if a day she really left us,

and what if she really disappear in our life,

nobody can replace her in life.

I don't wish to lose her, I've never seen someone

so understanding and everything.

But when it's time she'll return to God

and she'll be someone new again.

Dog has life, human has life even a little small

animal and fly has life, but just that this life their

born to be animal.

When I heard one day my 3 dogs will leave me,

my eyes filled up with tears and I want them

by my side thou sometimes their noisy.

But they're still the one that cheer up me

whenever Im upset, they are the one

seeing me cry at times and lick up my

hand to tell me that they're here for me.

I really wish that people around me understand

the meaning of life and treasure what is

going on in life cycle. I really don't

want people in my life to leave me.

Im afraid, Im scare that they leave me.

I don't know how to treasure, I don't know how

to love previously. Dear is still

at lucky having dinner with Xiao Hao.

Tomorrow Im meeting him up for AVATAR!

Amk Hub, I heard is a nice nice movie.

worth watching I shall decide tomorrow

3 hours show, better make it worth it!

Pain Pain Pain ;((

2009-12-22T11:34:00.002+08:00

Im in pain ;((.

Pain cause of my mens, and the cramps is killing ;((.

It's on the 22nd Cantonese's Chinese New Year.

But Im having a PMS mood and

the pain is hurting me like mad ;((.

ROAR BIG ROAR.

Pain pain pain pain pain ;((.

I wants to lie down and rest,

But sigh, it's impossible.

Tomorrow Im going back Dear's place,

shall have a good rest in the noon.

Doesn't want to tired myself out.

I just want to rest and not do anything today.

Im feeling not well, the pain is hurting

till I feel very weak in the body.

I don't feel moving at all, the gushing

is irritating. ;(( SAVE ME PLEASE.