Tuesday, December 22
Family ♥
Im starting to scare of losing
my family members, my mum, my grandma
& my great grand-mother.
Whenever a year pass, I will be thinking in my
head, another year lesser to spend my time with
them, sometimes I wish really time stop at
a point where is the happiest time.
Maybe my happiest time with my family
was when I was 4-6 years old.
Thou that period of time, my r/s with my mum
wasn't that good.
Last night I've watched the Life Transformer
on channel 8, talking about this family needed
people's help and talking about their story.
At every scene when their eldest son
is crying when he's mum left for work,
makes me filled my eyes with tears
and it really hurts.
I've heard the worst thing I've heard about
Singapore. Both their son wasn't able to
help themselves with the basic living
of life. When their eldest son ran away from
home, he was burned by cigarette
and people hold him on the head
and bang it against the wall.
When I heard from my mum that grandma leg's
ain't doing any better my heart suddenly
felt sour, what if a day she really left us,
and what if she really disappear in our life,
nobody can replace her in life.
I don't wish to lose her, I've never seen someone
so understanding and everything.
But when it's time she'll return to God
and she'll be someone new again.
Dog has life, human has life even a little small
animal and fly has life, but just that this life their
born to be animal.
When I heard one day my 3 dogs will leave me,
my eyes filled up with tears and I want them
by my side thou sometimes their noisy.
But they're still the one that cheer up me
whenever Im upset, they are the one
seeing me cry at times and lick up my
hand to tell me that they're here for me.
I really wish that people around me understand
the meaning of life and treasure what is
going on in life cycle. I really don't
want people in my life to leave me.
Im afraid, Im scare that they leave me.
I don't know how to treasure, I don't know how
to love previously. Dear is still
at lucky having dinner with Xiao Hao.
Tomorrow Im meeting him up for AVATAR!
Amk Hub, I heard is a nice nice movie.
worth watching I shall decide tomorrow
3 hours show, better make it worth it!
Mrs. Geek ended @ 9:45 PM
Pain Pain Pain ;((
Im in pain ;((.
Pain cause of my mens, and the cramps is killing ;((.
It's on the 22nd Cantonese's Chinese New Year.
But Im having a PMS mood and
the pain is hurting me like mad ;((.
ROAR BIG ROAR.
Pain pain pain pain pain ;((.
I wants to lie down and rest,
But sigh, it's impossible.
Tomorrow Im going back Dear's place,
shall have a good rest in the noon.
Doesn't want to tired myself out.
I just want to rest and not do anything today.
Im feeling not well, the pain is hurting
till I feel very weak in the body.
I don't feel moving at all, the gushing
is irritating. ;(( SAVE ME PLEASE.
Mrs. Geek ended @ 11:34 AM
Heart talk.. ♥ ♥
Im talking to Michy now, and she was saying.
A friend of her just reminded her of that
"you broke up because you know you both are not suitable,
and the reasons behind was knowing him
well and he's character which doesn't really sutis you.
So why not have sombody you actually know him really well enough."
True enough, what's the point of rushing into
a r/s. I never want that again.
Some how when Im with Dear,
I know he's dislike, know he's likes but when
Im with the past I doesn't seems to even bother
remembering. Haha! How cruel. ;P
Well, Im sorry to my ex-s that I've hurt most
of you, but seriously your have made me learn
what is the meaning of treasure and loving
every chance people give you. Trusting someone,
trusting that he'll never cheat on you and
never hurt you with. & will never hit you
whenever your quarreled.
Never tie a person too tight till it can't breathe.
Well, Im glad your teaches me such lesson
and show me almost your true colours.
Cause never one of your treat me like he does now.
;)) Neither did I treat your like how I treat him.
Cause nobody deserve more than what he deserve.
Im missing he's PGM IV, sigh dear sold him away
due to problematic. I was with him through out
this 7th months he was at the work shop for
almost 4 months! Haha so can imagine we got
bike like don't have bike! Lol. So imagine that kind
of taking taxi where ever we go. Lol, waste money
till mommy gotten Dear at MRT card.
& that's when we started to take train and bus again!
After that period we have went through. Hehe ;))
Dear I still remember that 14 stops. ;))
Still that funny when I thought back. Hehe ;P
He takes a helmet and accompany me
all the way from Orchard to Tampines
where he's bike at Orchard with him on the train
with me on the way home ;)).
I couldn't stop thinking about him,
I only can leave my mind alone when Im watching
drama, but when Im tired and doesn't
want to watch anymore he's floating inside my head,
telling me to miss him. Dear you're such a affection!!
;)) Night peeps! God this post took me 1 hr 15 mins. ;P
Mrs. Geek ended @ 12:45 AM
